Sunray..

2010-08-01T03:10:00.002+08:00

안녕!
정말 오래만이에요
오늘 12시간 일하세요
너무심심해
참을 차고십지만 안 찼어요
많이 책이 읽으세요

아이구... 힘드로...

こんにちわ！
本とに久しぶりだな？
今日わ１２時間働きます
ぜんぜん退屈させる
眠いたいけど眠りない
多くの本に読みなければなりません

じゃ～！

2010-06-18T22:43:00.002+08:00

안녕하세요

여로분 잘치냈어요?

일을진자재미없어
그리고 많이사람좋아없어
왜? 처는사람보면너무비군거에요

わからなければ　平気です
私わ皆がよまさせるない
日本語わ本とに書きにくいです
そろそろ寝れるです
おやすみなさい

2010-05-02T01:44:00.002+08:00

one of the best ways to improve your command of any language would be to join chatrooms from that country and try to speak to the natives with that language

I did it

Haha. I created an account and downloaded their messenger. Went into their chatrooms and started to converse with them. Although I was google translating their words most of the time, I knew i was stepping out of my comfort zone. To try form proper sentences with the words i knew. that's one step ahead

Maybe i should try this with the other languages im learning. But what about music? I think i need to gather round like minded people who are passionate about music so i can absorb some of their passion and at the same time flatten the steep learning curve.

But my current shift timing really leaves me with very little personal time. Or rather it feels that way. Haha. Time management is needed!

till then ...

2010-04-15T22:28:00.001+08:00

today i only spent about 10 hrs awake
now i feel like eating and sleeping
how screwed

2010-03-25T00:25:00.002+08:00

hello everyone!
(if anyone reads this at all)

work's boring
i have come to dislike the sound of ringing phones
and of course phone numbers
work-related trauma
haha

the learning of the Japanese language has hit a new high
with me trying to read Japanese news online
yes i know
i'm hardworking

i have also tried to learn as much Korean language as possible
like watching korean dramas
but so far i have only watched one episode of stairway to heaven.
so much for the effort haha

personal accomplishment aside

i realised that after all this time
i still hate to talk to girls who act the damsel in distress all the time
like, modern lifestyle yet the mindset of a victim
pfft. princesses

anyway for the last 2 appearances at birthday parties
i do hope that my fashion sense has improved and would like it if there was some feedback

and finally
today was a damn shag day
gym in the morning
swim in the afternoon
basketball at night
totally woots

and of course

ja na!

2010-03-17T00:33:00.003+08:00

at first you talk to everyone
then you talk to only your friends
then you talk to only your closest friends
then you talk to only your best friend
then you stop talking at all
then you lose the ability to talk

at first you see everyone
then you see only your friends
then you see only your closest friends
then you see only your best friend
then you stop seeing anyone else
then you lose the ability to see

at first you feel everyone
then you feel only your friends
then you feel only your closest friends
then you feel only your best friend
then you stop feeling for anyone
then you lose the ability to feel

along with listening ...
i guess we lose more than just our senses as we grow up

over mountains, over seas ...
far far away
a tiny speck of light catches your eye
how do you catch that speck of light?

2010-03-05T00:02:00.003+08:00

久しぶりだな？

been quite preoccupied watching videos again
although on the side i've been reading up some jap and korean
it's making progress albeit at a very slow pace

and how quickly time passes
tomorrow is the a level release date
where have all the preparations gone to?

the big plan for the big dream in the big world
it's not lost yet
just need to sleep on it a bit more

between the last post and now
i've managed to hit a new low of 19.6% body fat and 67.3 kg
amazing achievement!

안녕 ! and i just figured how to write korean without using the handwriting pad!

2010-02-15T00:39:00.002+08:00

what happens when the lunar new year and valentines day fall on the same day
both having a history of being uneventful

actually, the lunar new year is better since there are lots of nice foods around and you get money
maybe catch up with the relatives that you never had contact with for the whole year since the last lunar new year

and the other?
there's really no purpose ...
just a lame day which if you were really in love
should be just any other day
having said that, typed actually
it's also just any other day for people not in love

but anyway
what happens when you spend it talking to really unlucky people having problems with their services?
or really irritated people?
and when your last call was some irritating ahjumma?

oh well
happy lunar new year to all
and for some
happy just another day

じゃな。

2010-02-02T22:57:00.002+08:00

how was your january?
it was such a weird question
i would have never asked myself
i guess i should ask myself more often

but looking back
i felt that i changed somehow
that i didn't let the little things upset me
that i have trained my eyes to look at the silver lining of every cloud that passes through my skies
that i could keep walking through a storm
that every time someone gave a less favourable answer they weren't giving up on me

having said that
i believe to could do with more drive
like pursuing my goals with my passion
that some things that i'm doing are not as useful and the time used should be traded to do better things
like stop watching videos
haha

and anyway
for starters
i didn't know you read my blog
but at least you mentioned it and now i know
haha

watashi wa gambattenakereba narimasu!

2010-01-30T00:51:00.003+08:00

so damn allergic to alcohol
it's like itchy all over now
and it's like so damn fat all over again
bread pudding
fried rice 3 servings today
and lots of alcohol
if i don't rebound back to 70
it's a lie

this event has got me thinking
again
things like
affection and love
studies, work and the future
where do i belong
but it is kind of
not about where i belong
but about finding where i want to belong
that haunting need to belong somewhere
to have someone, somewhere, something to call your own
it is never easy

but if it's never easy
then it must be as easy as everything else
when you've hit rock bottom
there's nowhere you can go but up

just keep walking to see the day of light

zettai akiramenai
ja!

2010-01-09T23:57:00.003+08:00

nowadays is a period where things that i have never experienced before are happening

it's like being on a path to somewhere wonderful
but thorns grow out of the path
and you start to wonder if it's the right path
people further ahead are telling you
you might step on thorns but don't give up
this is THE path

im currently stuck in the middle
between the thorns
and people who are saying yes
but i shall persist
and continue to tread lightly to avoid the thorns

this is the storm in the middle of the ocean
on the outside, it's ravaging fury
on the inside, it's calm
i choose to be in the eye of the storm
i have chosen
so wish me luck

ja ~

2009-12-27T22:15:00.002+08:00

today
i woke up at 12 although i wanted to wake up earlier to play ball
but at 7 i had to go to the toilet
so i had clocked only about 6 hrs of sleep
whats more i had woken up at 7 the previous day due to the same reason
and i had slept only about 5 hrs then

this needs to change
to sleep early
to wake up early to do what i want to do
then in the afternoon
a nice workout
at night reading

i also think that it is high time that i lived by a set of rules for myself
that i shall never do things with mediocrity
that average should not be in my dictionary
that i should only aim to give my best to get what i want
fighting !

2009-12-19T01:40:00.002+08:00

Ladies and gentlemen
i've found a really good way to shave off those fats
brisk walking

I went running yesterday, actually two days since it's now saturday
and I thought if a car consumes most petrol at gear 1 and when the rpm is high
similarly the human body should react in the same way
so i did it
from east coast park to kembangan mrt
and from there to back home i went at gear 5 at a low speed
which is the other most inefficient way of getting around

i had a kfc meal that day
and yesterday i had a double drumstick duck rice for lunch
just before leaving the house
i measured my weight and body fat
72.3 and 21.5 which is very spectacular
usually after lunch my weight increases to the high 72 and 73 range
and 21.5 was the lowest % i ever went
that my friend
proves that
driving in first gear at high rpm really does eat up more fuel

fighting =D

2009-12-17T22:50:00.002+08:00

this blog is 4 years old! Wow
seems like I've come a long way
braving one storm after another
it was no mean feat
having come thus far
we all should be giving ourselves a pat on the back
and say good job
we should aim to work harder to bring out the best in ourselves
give the world your best and it will come back to you

two things to celebrate
the final liberation from obligation
and the successful 21st party of oneechan
the execution of the party seemed to flow quite well
and it must have been so tiring to have organised a meeting for 50 to 60 people
still you managed to pull it off
jyjy oneechan
i will be expecting greater things from you
=D

now it would a long long time for me
to upgrade myself with all the relevant courses
but of course having a job would be more important
i just can't see myself slacking for the next 7 months
make full use of the time
TIME MANAGEMENT
fighting!

2009-12-09T14:15:00.002+08:00

watching shows and movies really affects my mood
happy shows = happy me
hmmm anomaly?

was watching this korean movie
hello schoolgirl
and i could feel the emotions of the characters
a sense of helplessness
but it ends well anyway

ja!

2009-12-01T21:33:00.002+08:00

just caught ninja assassin
wasn't too bad
more inspiration for the packs
haha

unfortunately before the packs can come i need to shave off a mcdonald's meal
teriyaki chicken burger
taste the same as bk's tender grilled chicken
all that curry and mayo and chilli sauces
i can see the fats piling already

whatever
got to train harder!
fighting!

2009-11-29T22:30:00.002+08:00

after watching lots of snsd videos
i just want to immerse myself in the happiness of the world
when unhappy things happen
i just tune out and look for sources where i can feel that there is still hope
while this maybe bad for me
since it is an escape
but i don't want to change
it wasn't easy to feel that doing your best was enough and there was no other way that it could have happened
to feel that happy things could really materialise

i pray that this feeling won't go away ~
fighting!!

2009-11-20T21:48:00.002+08:00

it takes only 2 days to lay waste to the efforts put in over the last two months
but still
it's no excuse to stop

fighting!

2009-11-13T21:43:00.001+08:00

I think i really like girls who've got certain personalities
A good way to put it would be those who have got personalities that contrast mine
but probably have similar interest?
Haha

2009-11-09T21:19:00.001+08:00

yay
72.5 and 21.9
way to go
fighting!

2009-11-05T22:53:00.003+08:00

why do we have to go to places we don't like
why do we have to go to places that takes 2 hrs to reach
why do we have to go to places to look at people we don't want to see
why do we have to go to places only to get confined
why do we have to go to places where they serve food that have been cooked hours ago
why do we have to go to places where they force you to come early and release you late
why do we have to go to places where they are stingy with offs and generous with punishment

but the choice wasn't mine to make

it's no different from the poor concubines, maids and slaves to an evil lord
at least they get the sympathy
all we get is time will pass very quickly
as if it was a jail term meted out on a criminal
believe me
right now
the place i go to
is a prison

2009-11-05T21:10:00.002+08:00

I have found the weakness in the plan that I was sticking to
the problem is dinner
If i eat a little for dinner
the weight goes down and so does the bf %

if i stick to the current plan
i should in time for a six pack by ord
hehe

2009-10-30T22:58:00.002+08:00

i was watching we got married episode 40
where the marbi couple were at the top of a mountain catching the sunrise
man
i felt cold for them
so much snow
and imagine 6 layers of clothes
if you wore that much in sg
i think you would have died
before you reached the 5th
haha
looks like i would have to give my japan/korea life a great big thought
i cant stand the cold
haha
ja

2009-10-28T21:07:00.001+08:00

so far the % has been hovering around 22-23% with no significant improvement
more has to been done
ahhhh !!!

2009-10-26T20:26:00.002+08:00

my phone went for a swim
and soon
it went into comatose
it was only about 2 days later that we decided to send it to the hospital
unfortunately
they pronounced it dead on arrival
rest in peace
my camera-less phone
i will always keep the memories of you playing music, sending smses, handling calls, keeping time and remembering all the events for me
you have been a great aid
you will be missed

on the other hand
i would like to welcome a new addition to the family
the LG GD900
woots
i have been keeping a lookout for this phone for quite a while
the demise of the old phone although was earlier than expected
but i welcome the change nonetheless
i like the crystal touchpad and all
looks so delicate
it could just break in the hands of a ruffian like me
haha
JUST LOVE THE NEW PHONE =D

2009-10-20T20:58:00.002+08:00

when i thought 22.7 was bad
over the last few days i measured 23.9% highest
like what the fuck
i really don't know what the fuck is wrong with my workouts or diet
fuck this and everything else

2009-10-16T22:13:00.002+08:00

I hate it when I get punished for crimes I did not commit
I hate it when I have to be there 24/7 to answer for everyone
I hate it when I only get 14 hrs left of my off day

I could have killed some people when they gave me fucked up attitude when changing passes
I could have killed that Chinese when he pulled me when I was dribbling and claimed he did not
I could have killed that person guarding me was playing rough with me

So much desire to kill
So much desire to be the omnipotent and omniscient
So much desire to be free

2009-10-14T22:11:00.003+08:00

like seriously what the FUCK
after all that effort i've put in to lose weight
i'm still FUCKING OVERWEIGHT
FUCKING 22.7% body fats

for a while before i bought my new weighing machine
i thought
hmm
maybe it's muscle mass
BUT FUCK NO
it's FUCKING FATS

WHY THE FUCK IS THIS FUCKING HAPPENING
WHY THE FUCK DOES THE FUCKING FATS WONT FUCKING GO AWAY
FUCK

2009-10-14T15:02:00.002+08:00

hmm
nothing like posting on your own blog
where no one comes to see
perhaps i should make a private blog
but then again
i think i kinda like it when people come here once in a while
maybe not so soon then

recently i have been doing a lot of upgrading?
haha
i've done a lot of exercises to make that six packs more prominent
i dunno why but it seems to be just staying there without improvement
perhaps it's too much fats covering it up
i should remember to get that fat analyzer

about 2 days ago i went to look for just that
surprisingly it was very rare
i thought i could get it from like stores like best or courts
i found none
but then i remembered to look for it at pharmacies like guardian and watson's
luckily it was selling in guardian ( I think)
but guess what
it was out of stock
so much for the effort put into looking for it
but at least now i know where it can bought

i've also been watching a lot of videos online
MIT physics lecture videos and how to play the piano videos
though i haven't got very far yet
i feel like i've accomplished something
perhaps it's not procrastinating

i've also gotten quite a bit of bug bites
itchy and the marks just won't go away
perhaps i'm too sweet?
haha

many people's birthdays are coming and somehow i feel that my pocket is going to have a big hole burned in it
but this may not be a bad thing because
it's coming to the end of the year which signals the coming of the end of slavery
yes
that dreadful obligation to the country which i think serves no purpose
no big thank you
no market rate pay
heck we don't even get the leaves available outside
say hello to ord!
=D

ah. if anyone has got a job lobang please tell me
preferably some office work
lol
i'd hate to sweat it out doing manual labour
AGAIN.

ja!

2009-10-02T21:40:00.002+08:00

after so much time and effort
i've finally done it
despite being so close to failure
18 points and 1 free count
thanks to the free count i didn't fail
the tester was also lenient enough
but i guess at the end of the test he was quite irritated
maybe cause i didn't go fast enough and he was on a tight schedule
didn't even bother to go through the mistakes with me
but oh well
passed my tp =D

now that i'm finally done with driving lessons
i think i can now focus on the other areas such as shaping up and learning a few other skills
maybe... like cooking?
i've always wanted to cook my own meal
cause i can control what goes in to it
of course during this period i've thought of several mix of ingredients that i want to try out
not just your everyday food like pastas or some rice dish
i wanna create my own
maybe next time you'll see my own restaurant being set up

today is one of the days that i've played basketball to this level of being fired up
it was mighty frustrating enough that i couldn't concentrate enough to shoot the ball into the hoop
i also couldn't catch up to the speed of the opponent
something that hasn't happened for a while
must be these few days of slacking

today something unexpected also happened
a friend who hasn't been in contact with me for maybe
since the start of ns till now
invited me to her birthday party
coincidentally she arranged on the same day as another friend
now this is where all the awkwardness comes in
it's like you only know the hostess and no one else
and your socializing skill is so bad
so you become the lonely outstanding person
you want to leave the scene but you want to give the hostess some face
so you stay and become the loner in the crowd
happened once but it wasn't so bad then because that friend's friend came to talk to me although i was a bad conversationalist
but i seriously doubt the same thing is going to happen here
unless the other mutual friends come
so there
the complains and joys of today

ja!

2009-09-28T22:57:00.003+08:00

and i don't want the world to see me
cause i don't think that they'd understand

sometimes at night when i'm all tired and alone
the thoughts that are usually less active in the day takes over
and becomes the dominant thoughts

which are all the things that have been said over and over again
like the past failures
and that if only i had done something then
i wouldn't be here
and i keep thinking how it would have been like
if i didn't screw up every big thing in my life

i know that i always have been giving a black face
but do you even know why?
not that i always know why
but it seems that
i'm dissatisfied with myself
because i'm envious that you can do it better than me
and sometimes you can do it without even putting in effort
things just seem to fall into place for you and on the other hand
i have to keep fighting to stay alive
to stay afloat
to fight for that elusive moment of adrenaline rush
people can just sit around and do nothing and still their metabolism rate beats mine hands down even when i'm working out as my life depended on it
people can just sit around and do nothing and then people will just take turns to fall in love with them while i struggled so hard to have that same status only to have my efforts come to naught
why is it that people feel so excited about every little thing and i just don't feel anything
perhaps just more sadness
have i not done enough?
why is that the things i want so badly are the things that are so distant
like reaching for the stars
like just being a small person in the universe
unable to change anything
taking everything that life throws to me
and everything life doesn't give to me
it dangles on a string
enticing me to get it
it's in front of me but i can't get it
like holding onto air
catching nothing even though it's there

like holding onto air...

2009-09-06T16:13:00.002+08:00

the wind blew the days away
im only left with 99 days.
woohoo!

in view of the start of 2 digit countdown
i think i should start to do math and physics again
you know
the rusty brain
but hey
i oiled it sometime last year
so it aint so bad
maybe apply some reducing agent
crap

ippt's coming up and i do hope that i can pass this time
not some stupid 5 seconds failure

help me make better do with my time
im throwing it out the window!
ahhh

and the rain.
pesky rain
but thankfully for the rain
the haze situation isn't so bad

sometimes i wonder
if i'll ever be a bachelor my whole life
the odds seem high
and maybe die a rich old man with the assets left to my bro
how pathetic

but maybe singapore just doesn't offer my cup of tea
i think i'll move to japan or korea
but what the heck
i recently found out that korea has the highest amount of years people spend paying for their houses
and japan...
is strict with immigration
times are tough ain't it?

so much for my 4 seasons and awesome pretty girls... HAHA.
ja!

2009-08-14T00:22:00.003+08:00

12th was probably the worst day i've ever had
not only i failed tp
i failed it badly with a magnificent 30 pts
kerb, failure to confirm safety
really
i dont know what i was thinking
or if i was even thinking
stupid mistakes

then after failing and reapplying for tp
i had like a thousand missed calls and smses
all asking me where I am, what time coming back, (insert) kp already
like pls
i went for a test, not like i went to geylang to find prostitutes
or anywhere else for that matter
cant you be a bit more understanding

felt like going to the mo and say
i'm feeling eff-ed up
and i have suicidal thoughts
cant sleep well
and my head hurts like hell
let me go.

and along the way i was like
telling myself
dont bash yourself up
try again next time
while the subconscious mind keeps slipping in
wtf. wtf. wtf. why. why. why.
internal demons

ja!

2009-07-26T22:18:00.002+08:00

have you ever read a book about someone that you knew
crossed path and was a part of their life for a while
and then everything fell apart
you're both strangers again

it's funny
because as you read
the closer you get to the day the author is going to narrate about
when it all fell apart
and you already know what is going to happen

you start thinking
little did the author know
that in xx days time
everything you held dear
was going to disappear
into fine dust
and be swept away by the wind
never to be pieced together again
never to be seen again

you really start to think
did you with your own hands
shatter this piece of beautifully-shaped glass
by holding on too tight
or did the author let go of it
let it drop to the ground
to the same effect
the sound of breaking glass
till today still echoes deep within me
still comes back to haunt me now and then

because without both hands
this piece of glass
is doomed to shatter

there is one way to get it back into one piece:
to pick up the pieces
rekindle the fire
melt them
shape it back
let it cool
and you'll have back the one piece although it's never to be in the same shape as before

one hand by itself is unable to do that
it takes two hands
two hands to clap
two hands to pick up the pieces
two hands to shape it
two hands to carry it with care

it's time to let the echoes dissipate into silence
it's time to move on

2009-07-22T22:15:00.003+08:00

i think i will implement these two new measures to my weight loss programme

getting a weighing machine that can calculate % fats in the body
this way
im dont have to be obsessed about losing weight
just losing fats would do

the second measure would be to use chopsticks for my meals
as the chopsticks can only pick up limited amounts of food
it will take more tries to finish the same amount of food as compared to using a fork or spoon
this will trick the brain into thinking a lot of food has been consumed
thus eating less
this complemented with the drinking of water during meals
shall lead to an overall healthier meal
=D

so right now...
I shall get myself a nice pair of chopsticks and the new weighing machine

ja!

2009-07-18T21:33:00.002+08:00

i just completed my second long distance cycling!
route:
home>kembangan> ecp>city side end of ecp>airport end of ecp>airport stretch>changi beach>loyang>pasir ris>tampines>bedok reservoir>home

i estimate the distance to be around 35-40km
good job!
my thighs feel like it's being ripped to pieces
my back feels like an old man
my arse feels like squished pancakes
tomorrow shall bring new experience: soreness
haha

but then what the hell
i only lost 1 kg!

i know i have an acceptable body
and i know i can make it better
jyjy
=D

oh and i learnt a bit of drums today
i feel like i can be part of a rock band already
LOL

ja!

2009-07-10T21:45:00.003+08:00

i guess it's about being able to forgive yourself
and move forward knowing that you will do better

that it does not take another person to forgive you
that if you do not treat yourself better no one will
that you have to come out of the shadow of the past into the light of the future
that no one gets hurt more than yourself if you refuse to let go

when you see someone do well
do you go up to him and shake his hand
congratulate him earnestly and pat him on his back for the job well done
feel proud that the effort he has put in has reaped rewards

when you see someone do badly
do you go up to him and give him a hug
tell him that you've done your best
that you believe that he will do better because he is strong

you'd be surprised how many people needs a hug or that smile
i know i do

liberate the soul and free the mind

2009-06-26T22:38:00.001+08:00

yesterday i had about the worst feeling that i wouldnt make it for the appeals
today it came true.

yes. my world has come crashing down again.

2009-06-22T21:57:00.003+08:00

blogger was acting funny when i tried to click on new post
but anyway after a detour, i managed to get here
hurray?

last last week thursday i took my ippt
thought i had cleared everything
last week turns out that i had failed.
because of
2.4
and guess what
5 seconds was what cost me the pass
can you see the kind of hope i have
and the kind of disappointment i get?

what if my chances are already gone
and I started believing that I could be wrong?

2009-05-31T22:59:00.002+08:00

Captain! I think we're stuck in a time loop!

things turn out the same over and over again
just like being caught in a loop
only it's not a time loop
it's like you think you've got it
but after a while, you'll realise that
it's all wrong
as wrong as can be

it's like you think you're at the destination
but it turns out you're twice as far from the destination when you first started
it's like you're doing exercising a lot and eating appropriately but the fats never go away
it's like you're shooting with your 100% concentration but the ball never goes in the hoop
it's like you're doing lunges and squats but you can't jump higher than you were jumping before
it's like you're doing a lot of pull up training but the pull up count never goes up
it's like you're playing a lot of dota, but in the end you still get owned big time
it's like you're running to the end of the rainbow, but you never get to the end
it's like embracing that sliver of hope, but it was never there to begin with
it's like running into the dense fog, you have no idea where you came from nor where to go
it's like you've done your best, but it's mediocre
it's like questioning yourself every night, but you're nowhere closer to the answer than before

ja!

2009-05-17T21:57:00.002+08:00

it's back to the same o same o
seems like every big test in my life
i have to go through twice

perhaps max said it right
there's 2 sides to everyone
one side of me is the competitive side
and the other is the one that's willing to settle for mediocre results
the competitive side often end up making a lot of people unhappy
and mediocre side often end up making me unhappy
it's such an internal struggle
i don't know how to make it right

i just found out i got a rejection
that's one down, two to go
at least i found out before they told me
if not i'd be holding on to a thread of hope
only to have it snap on me when i think that i can make it out

right now i don't even know what i'm feeling
one side of me is so down and out
and the other side says that i should not have a woe is me mentality
i guess it's called frustration

if only improvement is quantifiable
perhaps i wouldn't be kicking myself for not showing any improvement
am i chasing a rainbow
desperately looking for the pot of gold
only to find that it's a circle

i dont know how many times i can tell myself
there's hope
im i wanting it too badly or just not enough?

ja!

2009-05-03T11:19:00.002+08:00

this period as i remember last year
was one of much... unhappiness
really retarded sispec training
and the waiting for the uni application

we were under the canopy in a heavy rain
sitting on the mud waiting for our turn
just talking about how useless we were
and ending each grumble with a wtf

seems like every memorable event in sispec
had something to do with the rain
perhaps it's cause the rain had allowed us to stop
and to share our thoughts

the drops of chilling rain
reminded us of cruel reality was
reminded us of how alive we were on the outside
but how dead on the inside

for that i thank my sispec buddies for bringing me through that phase

ja!

2009-04-13T21:12:00.002+08:00

*takes a duster and sweeps away the dust

*ding*

now it's neither breeding mosquitoes nor gathering dust.
haha

okie.
met up with 2 pretty girls and a fellow hunk on sat
see that wc? LOL

wc you say i lost weight.
that's true.
but you're... skinny.
really.
but it's not so bad till the point your face has sunken in.
don't lose more weight already
i don't like going out with bones.
=D

first time eating at shokudo
the pasta not bad. the gravy was unique?
blended quite well with the spaghetti
too bad i didn't get to sample the other's pastas
then we headed to bk for a bit of bridge
as usual most of the time i didnt know who was my partner
haha
there were a few times that we made it at the very last moment
now i know the power of cards like 7,8,9 and 10
not big but significant enough to make a difference
i enjoyed myself =D

driving practicals coming up soon
i dont know why but i got this overwhelming dread
perhaps it's called laziness

i so wish for more offs.
eight months can't come soon enough.
ahhhh

ja!

2009-03-16T11:13:00.002+08:00

what am i fighting for?
is it even worth it?

and the booking test thing is so troublesome...

2009-03-02T11:06:00.002+08:00

How long has it been?

Had a few gatherings over the last few weeks
met up with s18 on vday
for bbq
i must we learnt a lot that day
i was thinking recently
it has been an amazing... close to 5 years?
how time really flies

then 401 on sunday
suprise turnouts
haha
and lots of pink camera action

and the breaks for the uni ppl are over
so i guess it's back to
solo time

of course
the weather
why does it always rain in the afternoon?
i wanna go swimming and play ball mr rain cloud
you've made me put on weight!

ja!

2009-02-10T20:08:00.002+08:00

today was...
i played games until almost evening
before going swimming
but
i stopped short of going into the pool
because
i didn't bring my swimming trunks there
i brought my underwear instead
sianned
then i proceed to play at what i thought was a lousy lan shop
lost
but not so badly though

im learning how to solve the rubik's cube !
here's one
the original cube
assuming you've labelled the cube front right left back top bottom
rotate the right face anti-clock, rotate bot anti clock, rotate right face clock, rotate bot clock
six times
you get back the same cube!

the rest is just. crazy

2009-01-30T22:36:00.003+08:00

these days
i have a feeling that I'm being monitered
it's so tragic
and when the people you think you can trust turn their back on you
what do you do

anyway
went for my medical appt this afternoon
rushed down from cck to simei
had lunch with ki
ordered a cheezy bbq meltz
cause not enough time for a proper meal
anyway
in that meltz
was one big chunk of charcoal or whatever you wanna call it
sick

it wasn't much
except that
my numbers shock me
despite the level of activity i have been maintaining these few weeks
the number was just skyhigh
im disturbed
but anyway
i have 2 followups
and they're going to cost me.
argh.

and yesterday
i FINALLY job advanced
cool
it was kinda draggy travelling here and there
but I survived
haha.

there's this 25 random things going around on fb
i read one of them and what i saw disgusted me
the world has ugly people

yawnz

2009-01-25T17:54:00.003+08:00

today!
played dota until i was so engrossed
i didnt notice my friend was honking at me
haha

Then then
went swimming at ki's
to kinda perfect my butterfly stroke
it's improved significantly
i now splash less water
=D
followed by a lunch session at fish and co
at first we took mrt to tampines to eat billy bombers
but it was closed
so i suggested that we go down to tm's basement to get something to eat
which was fish and co, mos and pu tien
i suggested fish and co but ki didnt want
so we ended up taking a taxi to parkway
and finally deciding upon fish and co
the seafood platter for 2 is like damn lot
and is actually 3 guys servings
well, enough for cj ki and i
ki's idea of lunch.
XD

At parkway i met on of my bmt friend
but all i did was
Sean! Hi.
and the world continued spinning

ki rightly noted that is that how i greeted people
it wasn't the first time
there was another occasion
when i went on my 4 hrs cycling round east of sg unknowingly
without food, water, phone, money
just me and my bike
i met weebeng and merrick
people i knew in sec sch
weebeng called out to me
Robin!
and i went
Oh! Hello.
continue cycling
Hi Merrick.
continue cycling
the end.
like LOL
what was that?

I think i need to work on my greetings
haha
ja!

2009-01-23T22:32:00.002+08:00

finally finished course
i think it was a nice break from the shift duty
but it's also nice to be going back
since i can now do what i want
as in exercise
during the course i felt really unfit
the lack of duty
but but
at that point of time
i realised i could do 4 backhand pullups
and achievement!
yay!

and today
i went to swim
tried the butterfly stroke
lol
only managed to do half a lap
and i think i was splashing alot of water
and didnt really move forward
but
i think it is really the craziest style i've tried
my back muscles are now sore
hah

ja!

2009-01-11T21:35:00.002+08:00

it seems like there is some sort of problem with my internet connection
i cant load my hotmail properly

oh well.
anyway
happy new year to all =D
hope that a great future awaits us all

they say that having new year resolutions actually don't help
but still i'm going to put to actions what i said i would do

had a class gathering on friday
nice catch up with the girls who don't turn up frequently
and i must say i didnt expect myself to stay till morning
thanks to melissa for the car ride

and really
these few days
i have problems getting enough sleep
first is that im afraid that some restless people might spring suprise spotchecks on us
second my people gets on with their activity late into the night
and it isn't sound proof
so my sleep is disturbed

and another thing that bugs me
is the lack of fitness facilities
like pullup bar
it's almost like they want us to get fat and fail our ippt
in which it is already happening to my people
i guess im the only one who is fighting against this evil force
and well
it kinda outcast me from the group
because my goals greatly differ from them

finally
the application of uni courses
though i have made up my mind that i want to take
material science and econs double
firstly it's a double
secondly i have searched some forums seeking for advice and it doesn't seem rosy for me
so it's kinda double whammy
and i have yet to do my research on the other courses that i want to apply for
dear me

i think i should go on a more fruity diet
cut down on carbs.
yeah

that'll be all
ja!

2008-12-28T01:03:00.002+08:00

yesterday i went to a christmas party
dorcas' cellgroup held it
it was quite fun
the host had a clear idea of what to do
like there were activities
instead of just going there to eat
but maybe i just lack experience
the people are quite friendly
and it wasn't so awkward

and the afro!
one of the first few things that i saw when i entered the house was the afro
i kinda got a shock because
you know
just how many non-muslims, non-african(-american) keeps an afro
but it was just a wig la

not forgetting the jolene lookalike
im serious.
posture, voice and background quite similar too ~
maybe it's her long lost sister?
haha

ja!

2008-12-21T02:13:00.002+08:00

Yesterday was quite a happening day
went to play ball in the morning
and realised that we're all really old men now
only after a few hours of playing ball
we're all dying to get substituted out
whereas a few years back we were all dying to get substituted in

then we had a gathering at jo's house
it was much fun
almost as fun as the times we had in jc
except that now we're moving on to real time forfeits
im glad that as a class, we didn't completely lose contact with each other
i must say that it is beyond my expectations that we had remained this close
none of my previous classes were like that

but there's something that bugs me
the fact that melissa said that her friend said i was staring at her when i didnt was really annoying
perhaps it's just my face?
i really tried to be more friendly and stuff
less of those kind of people who would make someone else uneasy unless i meant for it to happen
but apparently im still, well, me.

ja!

2008-12-19T04:28:00.002+08:00

it's four plus in the morning and i'm wide awake
i had some terrible stomachache last night and i felt like puking
i did. for one time
it felt like my ribs were crushing my innards
and guess what
i had some chest pain over the heart area at like three plus
i think i'm going to see a doctor later
maybe it's an underlying heart problem
in case i don't make it
i love you all
=D

and well
it sure feels good to have a computer up and running again
ja!

2008-12-10T09:48:00.002+08:00

had a great time on monday ~
really fun day
singing and meeting up with the nostalgic faces

i guess we've all grown in some ways
it's clearly reflective in the conversations

i'm very grateful for you guys
cause people come and go
you guys are one bunch of people who come and stays
and it all started with bridge?
haha

oyasuminasai?
ja!

2008-12-06T21:32:00.002+08:00

I guess if there's someone that's better than you
there's bound to be someone that's lousier than you

So do you treat them with pity?
or do you exterminate them
those with lower level thinking skills and act rashly
disgusting beings who do not know where they stand

one side of me tells me that i should live and let live
the other
tells me to make it difficult for him such that he'll never be able to stand back up again
crush him, his ego and all

2009 is coming.
ja!

2008-11-24T23:16:00.002+08:00

I have a problem:
I can't get over things

and advice like:
Just be yourself
dont go looking for it
is just so conflicting
if i were myself i wouldn't still be in this pathetic state
and not looking for it means that it will never come
things dont just happen
especially when you're a guy.
a guy without any special talents
a guy who is too serious but is impervious to everything else

i guess im different
like half of this and half of that

Sometimes I hope I am little bit more successful?
Perhaps swim all the fantastic styles in the shortest timing for a lap
Or that I could be sociable

Sometimes I have this fire inside me
that wants more
makes me wanna be someone
the best there is
Sometimes I have this ice inside me
that totally shuts out worldly influence
that I should be just who am I
and the world is just me

This double approach really confuses me and makes me feel down
like ill be fire, ice, fire, ice mode
Ill be working hard to achieve something
then ill feel that i've done something
then ill see someone better than me
then ill feel down
like why am i never there

why other people can score like 9 As and im not one of them
why other people can have such desirable bods without much effort and im not one of them
why other people can get into a relationship so easily and im not one of them
why other people can do like 30 pullups and im not one of them
why other people can like jump high and far and im not one of them
why other people have such marvelous talents and im not one of them

i try to stay up
but i keep getting down

2008-11-10T17:16:00.002+08:00

hello ~

well well
the exams and projs are still on going
which means no going out with the busy undergrads
and the a levels
haha
not that i know anyone that's taking the a lvls
good luck to all involved

been down with the usual list of illness that comes together
sorethroat, flu, fever...
but recovering already
now is only the blocked nose that's irritating

9 more days ! take note all ~
hahaha
ja!

2008-10-23T14:07:00.002+08:00

i was having lunch at the coffeeshop
and it was beside a primary school

well, you know lunch.
it is also the time when all the primary school kids start swarming out like locust
lol.
really reminiscent of the past

then i observed
or rather lost in thoughts

girls were wearing skirts

It's the norm
so you probably wont question it
at that point of time
it seemed weird to me

why?
why is it that all schools get the girls to don skirts and the guys, pants.
is it some kind of reason to it?
why primary school and lower secondary boys wear shorts
does it symbolize something significant?

if the answer is that skirts are to make girls ready for society
to appear presentable
there are women who wear pants to work
so why not pants

and for the shorts, does it represent the level of maturity?
if so, does it mean that boys gain a new level of maturity upon making it to sec 3?
highly unlikely as the growth of each is an individual process not a group effort
and would it mean then that girls never grow up or that they remain as grown as they are through out their schooling life?

why is there a difference?
after all, at some point of time
our ancestors were all wearing skirts and dresses

why are girls allowed to let their hair grow like wild grass
but the guys have to get their hair trimmed every now and then like lawn grass
after all, at some point of time
our ancestors all had wild grass-like hair

But this is just sg.
we have social dogmas
and when we defy, stigmas.

hah.
just a random thought
Ja!

2008-10-13T22:15:00.002+08:00

How ya doing?

Me? Starting to get tired of travelling so far.
Really. 2 hr long journeys mean that I would have to drag my ass out of bed at 530
and leave at 6 to reach at 8.
I'm a healthy person ok.
I sleep 7-9hrs a day. I know some people get like half or worse, but hey, I'm a big guy with big needs.
So which means my day is limited to 2230hrs.
Assuming I reach home at 1000hrs,
14 hrs of activity is what I have.
I really should be maximising the amount of time I have.
Investing it on more valuable processes.
Not in front of the computer
all day long.

Anyways
that day at the KTV.
I have a feeling I was quite chui.
What I hear of my own voice is like too high pitch
in a sense that, when duet with Mielin
I can hardly differentiate whose voice was higher pitch.
Got range, no power.
Chui ~
However, it was nice catching up with you guys.
We haven't met since ages.
=)

8 more levels.
gogogo

Ja!

2008-09-25T22:22:00.002+08:00

What if it wasn't enough?

How can I improve on it?

Who can I ask?

When will I try again?

Where to start?

WHY?

It's never enough
therefore it never ends.

2008-09-02T19:27:00.003+08:00

Just finished one shift
wasn't that bad
but I heard the place is haunted
i do hope for the rest of my time in there
I would not be so unfortunate as to experience the supernatural

Everytime I enter a new institution/organisation
I'm always filled with inspiration
and motivation and have lots of goals.

So here's my new set
- work for a ippt gold
- secure a place in material science and engineering (any of the 2 Us would do)
- get myself into a mass comm/biz/accounting course outside
- keep in touch with my math, econs, physics and languages
- to hit 60-63 kg range
- have my cleric become priest

along with new goals, also comes new wants
- a super computer with excellent sound system
- a wallet [edit: just got my new wallet. rawr! XD]
- a trendy bag to tote to work
- a fitting shirt(preferably red)
- a nice pair of slippers that wont soak my feet when i walk over puddles (red too)
- super megapixel camera phone

yall should know wadda do right yo?

ja!

2008-08-24T19:40:00.002+08:00

i think it must be my lucky period
i've got posting the rest would die for
though it be a bit far
i would more time for myself

and well
sorry to all
i didnt get anything for you
there's a very limited luggage limit. (hmm. how to better phrase this sentence?)
and i don't really know the taiwan i saw would have been the taiwan others would have seen
we went to really lots of theme parks, ximending and shilinyeshi
i must say the shopping experience is quite memorable
heh.

lost another like 3 kg?
one step closer to the ideal weight :D
hope i've grown taller as well

ja!!

2008-08-16T21:35:00.002+08:00

woo
finally back home

the past few weeks have been kinda of horrible

to start off the place was stuffy as it is summer and there was very little wind
then the typhoon came and we were stuck inside the building
killed one day
then the endless walking from place to place
the frustration of encountering unmapped routes
the rain and wind and lack of dry clothes

hot in the day cold at night. thats tough training.

just so glad to be home.
kinda exhausted
so ill update some other time ~
ja!

2008-07-25T20:39:00.001+08:00

this doesn't feel right
nooo

pre-flight jitters?

haha.
wish me luck ~

2008-07-24T21:05:00.002+08:00

i just realised that

this close childhood friend of hers
trains in the same company as me

fk.

taiwan in 2 days!

2008-07-19T14:49:00.003+08:00

the past is a dream
the future is a vision
the present, well spent, makes the past a dream of happiness and the future a vision of hope

flying to taiwan sooooon!!!!
and 4 more weeks to pop!

edit:
went for hellboy II
ok movie.
not really fantastic
and met up with ruz and ryan after the movie for supper
and ryan said

how come you become so thin?

XD

2008-06-21T20:45:00.002+08:00

this week was.
horrible?

too much being in the ugly and hot outfit
and my feet is like blisters galore
now i have a problem walking
and that seriously limits my ability to spend time outside

but hey
home is such a nice place to be

end my torment...
i feel sick of myself. sometimes.

2008-05-30T23:09:00.002+08:00

How are you feeling today?

tong xin(if im right) - xian zai... bu yao fen shou

never been anywhere near there. and relationships are like the last things i'd be thinking today.

Will you get far in life?

No scrubs - TLC

If you don't have a car and you're walking
Oh yes son i'm talking to you
If you live at home wit' your momma
Oh yes son i'm talking to you (baby)
If you have a shorty that you don't show love
Oh yes son i'm talking to you (yea yea yea yea...)
Wanna get with me with no money
Oh no i don't want no (oh)

thats about as far i'd go. owned. no car, no home, no shorty, no money. how far is that

How do your friends see you?

Session - Linkin Park

emo music. they see me as emo. im emo incarnate.

Will you get married?

Up against the wall - N'Sync

i think this means ill get a girl. but wont get married.

What is your best friend's theme song?

Luo Mei Lin - Bu Tong Duo Hao

I know this sounds sad but I don't have a best friend. Just friends. and good friends.

What is the story of your life?

Zhang Dong Liang - Wan An, Bao Bei

I don't recall hearing something like that before.
perhaps it's time to sleep now.

What was high school like?

Ice Ice Baby - Vanilla Ice

by the lyrics, it seems like i had a party
but my wmp just didnt produce any sound
hmmm

What's in store this weekend?

Go - Moby

Clubbing?
no i dont club.

How's your life going?

Renegade - Jay Z

living like a renegade... noooo

How can you get ahead in life?

Just a lil bit - Too Phat ft Warren G

dope. bit by bit

Whats the best thing about your friends?

Beautiful Girl - some korean name

ok. i guess they are beautiful.

What song will they play at your funeral?

Kiss of Life - Olivia Ong

How. Ironic. My life sounds nothing like the lyrics

How does the world see you?

Sexy, naughty, bitchy - Tata young

ROFLMAO.

Will you have a happy life?

A Whole New World - Peabo Bryson and Regina Belle

sounds like i will =)

Do people secretly lust after you?

Music of my heart - N'sync ft gloria estafan

I think it's a positive. Haha

How can you make yourself happy?

Tomorrow - Avril Lavigne

tomorrow is a different day =)

What should you do with your life?

Home - Chris Daughtry

Yeah. I should be staying at home.

Will you ever have children?

Butterfly - Wada Kouji

okie. er. i guess not.

what song would you strip to?

Big Girls DOn't Cry - Fergie

It's hard to imagine.

What does your mum think of you?

Sha Shou@ Xu - Lin Jun Jie

Assasin. cool

What is your deep, dark secret?

Sweet Memories - Olivia

Dark and sweet dont go together...

What is your mortal enemy's theme song?

Luo Mei Lin - Bu Neng Shuo Zou Jiu Zou

Must be another emo person.

What is your personality like?

Into the Ocean - Blue October

I guess i do like freedom. my unbridled nature.

What song will be played at your wedding?

Wanted Dead or Alive - 2pac and Snoop dogg

thats like... so no way

2008-05-30T16:57:00.005+08:00

first off.
really big sorry to mielin for not being able to make on monday cause i was having a great headache.
Sorry.

next.
happy belated birthday to jo.
im no good at remembering birthdays.
Sorry

third.
i've received all three universities' letters of rejection
this is probably the lowest point in my life.
know where to go
nowhere to go
plus all the unluckiness in the world seems to pour out on me
that i should be posted to the same company that i have always wanted to get out of
and to the vocation i least wanted to go
in the spare time that i could squeeze out when waiting to rush
i stare into blank space and start to remember all the times i have experienced despair
how i dug my own grave with my own hands
and how i am doing it once again.

the weight of the world bears upon my soul

2008-05-18T22:07:00.002+08:00

things just cant get worse.

posted to aslc. which means more outfield
and i simply dread outfield.
dear readers. outfields is where i lost my 14 kg
i lose all my appetite outfield
the only consolation is that there is a 4 day rnr in taiwan
taimei!

and theres yet to be any news of uni posting.
i think it is pretty much gone case.

save me

2008-05-10T11:16:00.002+08:00

4 days of forest, over
lovely bugs that suck a tad lot of blood out of you, gone
civilization is like the best place to be

so er...
i now weigh 70kg
that makes it a grand total to 14 kg lost
*applause in the background

nothing much to say actually
and i find that my lingual ability has regressed
and i actually took about 3 minutes to think of the appropriate word
which brings me to my point
on thursday
i said ' i actually am ...' with much incoherence
and i thought about it
and realised it should have been 'i am actually...' without looking like im autistic trying to piece word by word to form a sentence.

point: ns makes you suffer from lingual atrophy

2008-04-19T16:31:00.004+08:00

HEAT RASHES
+ BUG BITES
--------------------
WHOLE BODY ITCH
--------------------
=(

been denied sleep this whole week
inadequete sleep
sleeping at like 12/1 and waking at 5

say say say
wheres the welfare for the needy?
and im not coming back this coming weekend
how much more sadness can be injected into thou life?

on the bright side
im halfway through!
=)

they had no right they had no say
and
I long to be free one day!!!

ja!

2008-04-12T16:54:00.003+08:00

back from camp
less suffocated.
much less.

had a bball match this morning
im amazed that people actually took me into the starter five
=)
but
i screwed it up horribly

we did draw the first blood
i assisted
but they said the referee was on the opponents side
many fouls that were not called
and the many fouls that we committed that were called
how fair is that
but we managed to hold them down to just 10 points
we lost 4-10.
there were teams that scored 2 and 3.

but i think we couldn't have done better given the amount of practice we had(just 2 hrs yesterday).
and the kayu referee. boo

im seriously quite bored at home
and i wanna watch ironman

any girls wanna volunteer? heh. XD

ja!

edit:
I just realised that the exhibition was spelt as exibition.

and i forgot to mention here that
in the newspapers
the person who was put of the life-sustaining unit as he was brain dead
was the father of a friend of mine
he has so many siblings
and the father was the sole breadwinner
isn't it funny how fragile life is?
there are lessons to be learnt

2008-03-22T03:37:00.002+08:00

i was trying to insert a new song but i accidentally deleted some crucial html
and i saved the changes
and im just lazy to find the original coding for the blogskin
so i went to find something similar

but this one is like...
beauty here and there
but im really lazy to find another one
heh
those who dont know me sure gets mistaken

ja!

2008-03-20T00:22:00.002+08:00

im was wondering
if i was an anime character wouldnt it be nice
the lead that is

you'd never age
can eat like nobody's business and still remain in that uber hot shape
the cool hairstyle and weapon too. awesome
girls! always...
you're like super powerful
by luck you'd always win
make lots of friends

wouldn't it be nice?
ja!

2008-03-17T13:28:00.002+08:00

Pop lo.
free till 23rd
heh

and then a levels
h2: econs - b math - c physics - c
h1: gp, pw, chi, geog - c

in a sense
it's not fantastic cause you read the papers and realise half the world got 3 a and above
and math and physics was supposed to be As somehow i just didnt get it
but then again
given that i was scoring like d, e, s for my h2 papers and u for geog
i felt that i was really a good improvement
not saying that i feel that it is acceptable
but that given the amount of effort i put in before a levels and during the a levels
i think that it could not have been any better

Hmmm
I think thats it for now
ja!

2008-02-29T23:23:00.002+08:00

ah 29th feb
once every 4 years
nothing special but i thought i would be nice to leave a 29th feb entry

this week been pretty taxing
re ippts, socs and route marches
by the way
i've passed ippt
hurray ~

right now it's 12 days to pop
about 7 is in camp and the last day is the pop day
so it's kinda like a half day i suppose
4 weekends and 1 day of a level results

im pretty sure it's next week
good luck to me and everyone getting the result slips
ja!

2008-02-24T01:29:00.002+08:00

my com's finally back
3 weeks of no surfing at home is suffocating
woots

watched L: Change the world
seen a part of L that was hidden?
no idea
apart from being a linguist and genius he's got quite some physical abilities too
L.

i like the part where the girl woke up in the hospital
and was presented her teddy bear
which had a second voice reply to it
im not clear on the details but it ends with something like
"make tomorrow a good day"

then after that went to popular to see some books
at the self improvement section
there were books like
'it's not how good you are, it's how good you wanna be'
and some books about happiness
which is quite true

it's all about perspective.
i know i made my mistakes
and it embarrasses me to think about it all the time
the foolishness

and i hope i learn from these mistakes
to become a better man.
ja

2008-01-06T18:00:00.000+08:00

keyboard (done)
tennis racket
badminton racket
rollerblades
skater shoes
and1 apparel
some nice wallet
n95
digicam
new com with ultra nice speed and stereo surround sound
dvd player

muahahha
MUAHAHAHA!

ja.

2007-12-31T10:23:00.000+08:00

wooo ~
it's the taste of fresh singapore air
yum yum

why does it taste so good?
scientifically
if you are deprived of something for very long
and suddenly you get to enjoy it
your body releases endorphins
the things that make you feel good

below are the ways to feel good. quoted from http://www.workerette.com/2006/10/10_ways_to_trigger_feelgood_ch.html

Eat a Chili Pepper. Chewing a hot pepper can release endorphins centrally and on the tongue.
Think Positive Thoughts. Power positive thinking can release endorphins that may actually ease pain even if a medication is physically ineffective.
Work Out. "Runner's High" is a term given to the feeling when you reach a certain point in your exercise routine when you feel a rush of positive energy.
Have an Orgasm. This releases enough endorphins to make your body and mind feel better.
Get Moved. Not physically, but emotionally. Watch a movie, watch your child play, have "a moment" with a friend or loved one, it will lift your spirits.
Acupuncture. The small amount of pain felt, helps the body release needed stress, which triggers the endorphins.
Eat Chocolate. This is my favorite suggestion. The cocoa bean actually has an effect on your brain that stimulates endorphin release. But it doesn't give you an excuse to eat a whole candy bar, just a few bites will trigger the release.
Be Afraid. Fear also causes endorhin release, so go out and rent a really scary movie!
Sit in the Sun. Now I know UV rays are bad, but they can also trigger endorphin production. That is why they say some people get addicted to sunbathing or tanning beds.
Laugh. A chuckle or an all out giggle fest, laughter produces endorphins that will increase your immune function and make you more resistant to disease.

now you know how to feel good! =)

it's been a shagedelic week
lots of physical
but i guess im adapting
i only slept 8 hrs and im up again
how imba is that
save the mosquito bites
my hand has 6!
my leg has 4!
and i think my collection is only going to get bigger
yayness

im waiting for payday
i need da cash
got lots of investment to do
booo

ja!

2007-12-14T01:48:00.000+08:00

what a week
this leaves me with slightly more than 24 hrs before i enlist

spent a lot of time with the s18 peeps
hah
really must thank you all for spending your precious time with me in this last week
was really happy times

unconsciously
the days begin to brighten
ja!

2007-12-10T21:06:00.000+08:00

I just found out something
laughable

and im amazed with myself for that discovery
not really discovery
but the proving of my hypothesis
i can go cambridge and get my doctorate already

unfortunately the 2 year delay is coming soon
booooo

well
i must say
im really glad i did cut all ties and connections to what would probably bring me down
and perhaps it's right to say that

my resolve has never been stronger!
the senate will be reorganised into the first galactic empire!
*applause from all around

I dont think anyone knows what im referring to ^

ja!

2007-12-04T01:14:00.000+08:00

busy week
so busy such that i dont remember what i did for the first few days of the week
but i remember that i went to nus to breathe the fresh air there
it's damn windy there
but very little chiobu
cause it was their exam period
awww ~
but oneechan was there
so still ok
i think i should count myself lucky that i wasn't whacked
after being portrayed as someone im not
then went to biz fac to slack for damn long time
before deciding to go vivo to catch 30 days of night
the view there compensated for the view in nus, or the lack of thereof
the movie wasnt as good as it thought it would be
i think it was a waste of talent for someone like josh harnett
but i didnt manage to catch the start of the movie
cause we were waiting for a friend
maaan
and that was like the most important part
come to think about it
it would be pretty scary to deal with a bunch of nutters that sucks blood and then cut your head off for a month without daylight
the blizzards just made it worse
considering how i always get sick when the weather gets too cold
i think alaska is a picturesque place - all the snow and stuff
vampires are after all, just a bad nightmare right?

on saturday
there was basketball session with the zephyr guys
woo ~
been a long time
possibly one of the last few times we meet
cause qi is going for ankle operation and wont be playing for a looooong time
then we went to different people houses to clean up
before going to qi's house
i thought we were just going to celebrate dx's birthday
but surprise surprise
it was for me, dx, eric, clement and deliang
we each got a zinc bag
thanks guys ~
qi said i got no fashion sense
how true
not only that
im not photogenic
so overall image is !#@$^&*()

where was i on sunday
oh ya
lan... nth much there...

today... actually yesterday by the time i post this
tennis with the guys at 12
my skin's red like a lobster now
we've all improved from anyhow-whack-balls-fly-out-of-court
to doing a proper serve
then we went to cj's house to bathe and play dota
we really treat it like our house
then we went to city hall for the class gathering
as usual
poor turnout
and i knew that even though we're late
we're early
guess it is really the last time we're gathering
release of a levels results dont count
oh well
the breeze at the top of esplanade is nice
and cj's jumping jack is really the highlight of the day
i've never seen someone do a dare like that
the dare is to do jumping jacks in front of a couple
and he did it
*round of applause
then back home
enjoying toberone from switzerland
ja!

2007-11-26T00:56:00.000+08:00

I hate it when people give me false hopes

tell me the weeks free
tell me that ill be given priority
then tell me cannot make it
oh thanks

words mean nothing at all
NOTHING

right now
im fuming mad cause i lost 2 games in addition to the insult
yes im a sore loser
im a perfectionist
i must win

and if everything can be postponed to next week
i would have loved to accept it
but im a man with limited time to enjoy
thanks for ruining my second week
ggkthxbye
cyanextyear

im a petty boy
i keep grudges
i keep my wounds open so they leave scars
i wont try to understand your situation
a promise is a promise
better dont talk to me
ill blow up and spew lava all over you
ja!

2007-11-20T15:55:00.000+08:00

MUMMY IT'S OVER!!!!!
dum dee dum dee dum dum tch

yay!
im a freee man ~
woohoo
all my homies out there
im free for 3 weeks!
so make a date while stocks last

on the other hand
the last paper was shit
but it's okay
many people were owned by it too

ahh
19 years gone....
gotta treasure the moments
ja!

2007-11-15T02:46:00.000+08:00

im left with only one paper!
haha

i bought jay's new cd today
havent heard it all
but in pu gong ying de yue ding the piano part is like mixing tui hou and part of secret

played lan...
damn tired now
ja!

2007-11-11T01:09:00.000+08:00

bust the rebels!
experience the magic!

9 days to the end
actually more like 3
cause the last paper will be on the 20th
and it's mcq
haha
great!

somethings are best left forgotten
cause even time will never heal

2007-11-03T00:21:00.000+08:00

gp is over.
finally can burn the notes
geog and math is going to be next
rah
kinda tired
but it'll be over soon
i hope.

2007-10-17T22:59:00.000+08:00

if only ?

2007-10-09T00:02:00.000+08:00

work it, make it, do it
makes us
harder
BEtter
FASTer
STRONGER

2007-10-02T18:42:00.000+08:00

today marks one year.

2007-09-26T18:28:00.000+08:00

screwed.

no more

2007-09-17T23:57:00.000+08:00

i think im suffering from atrophy of some kind
i cant type as well as i used to
its just weird
and the typos are significant

anyway
today math was good
i hope
seems pretty easy
but usually
easy things to me are those that i did badly for
difficult things to me are those that i did badly for too
lose-lose situation
great

ah
sweet a levels are just around the corner
and here i am
still gaming
and living life as if a levels were next year

i kinda figured out that
from the point i left poly
or actually secondary school
life was going to be different
very different
in secondary school
you had lots of free time
i wonder where did my time go to
how could people build such strong friendships in secondary school
while i
it's how my youth is wasted (not really though. i still have a year plus being teen)
wasted

i think im kinda slow developer
somehow i observed
my behavioral patterns
fit those in secondary school
so what does that make me
kid?
certainly i would like to be a kid again
shed all those excessive pounds away
get a hot killer bod to die for
force my mum to let me learn piano
and read more books

but the truth is
no one can change their past
some long dead guy said
if you alter the past, the future will disintegrate
anyway

i found out im not the affectionate kind
as much as i want to
im not

im distant from my parents
and socially inept

when was the last time i hugged my parents
at no point in my living memory
perhaps during infancy
but theres infantile amnesia
so i wont recall

my phone remained dead for one week
im better off with a hi card
or perhaps cancel the line
it would save my parents 20 dollars a month

the nights are long
and they get longer

2007-09-15T12:05:00.000+08:00

one week of prelims has passed
everything felt ok
except math
its horrible
and paper 2 is on mon
so
counting on it to pull my marks up

went to play lan yesterday
apparently im not cut out to be a gamer
only won like
3 games?
out of 6
doesnt sound so bad
just that it was bad
always one of the bottom ranked

okie
gd luck to me

2007-09-01T20:25:00.000+08:00

alright
here the breakdown on things
yesterday was teacher's day celebration
had to wake up early
then go to school for some screwed up party
it was just boooring
even the teacher said so
okie
then we had to go for the teachers' day celebration
i would have been quite numb about it
but
the second performance
she was there
and the day was ruined for me
she didnt do anything
it was just me
evoked lots of memory
and it was after so much work
so long
i thought the dust had settled
from then
think too much again...
its shitty

2007-08-29T08:46:00.000+08:00

blog?
theres nothing to blog really
my life is boring
eat sleep study play
realized that there are actually some very nice people out there
but who do you choose when 2 people treat you nicely?
dont worry folks
its not about girls

going to play tennis later... hahaha

2007-08-14T17:12:00.000+08:00

had like a 5 day holiday thanks to national day
wednesday was a halfday
pretty lame celebrations
math make up
then we went lan!
as expected a lot of them were full
and since ted had to leave early so we ended there
pretty sian actually
then at night went balling
and so was thursday and friday
saturday
was slacking
and i decided that i shall start mugging on sunday
but!
there came a message from mielin
are you free tml?
hoho
wanted to say no
but me being me
couldnt turn down an invitation
see what a GOOD friend you guys have right !?
intended time was 130
i arrived: 220
song bo
lol
but i WASNT the latest
everyone is beating my record
ok
was pretty hungry
and had macs while waiting for the girls to come
yes girls... the bother
lol jkjk
and omg caiqi came !
like the occurrence of solar eclipse
but anyway
to clem and roy: sorry i was hogging the mike
haha
had many duets (oh lookie. mielin does that look familiar?)
of course i was the leading male
who could have really resisted such an alluring voice?
LOL
anyway
enjoyed it a lot

then we head to subway
first time eaters at subway beware
never choose the stuff by yourself
always ask for assistance from your friends
i learnt this the hard way
i hit the toilet like free
actually
it wasnt that bad
just
funny tastes of weird veggies with mustard isnt the ideal combo
then we went shopping
ok sounds gay
but i wasnt the one doing it
except the earphones
you all gave so many opinions
i had to consider them all
thats why indecisive
funny
a self confessed indecisive person called me indecisive
what does that make me?

thanks for the many tips and advices and box ripping
i know caiqi wanted to strangle me
but
who really can bring herself to lay a finger on cute cute mew?
OMG BHB! XD
lol
thats all folks

2007-07-29T11:50:00.000+08:00

hp7 is a nice book
though...
the deaths are really unsatisfactory
read for 10 hrs str
left me a lil cross eyed and giddy
but worth it

okie
have been watching one litre of tears on crunchyroll
quite sad
cried at the sixth episode
though i cant believe i did

the end draws closer...

2007-07-22T00:12:00.000+08:00

potter
i want the book

nice movie
esp last part where they were fighting
and sirius entered with style
dont touch my godson

and i didnt know harry potter knew how to conjure the cruciatus curse

okie
had a bad week. esp on fri
met the principal
and got shitted on
mug on

2007-07-11T21:17:00.000+08:00

rid me of everything
everything except for the thirst for power