so damn allergic to alcohol
it's like itchy all over now
and it's like so damn fat all over again
bread pudding
fried rice 3 servings today
and lots of alcohol
if i don't rebound back to 70
it's a lie

this event has got me thinking
again
things like
affection and love
studies, work and the future
where do i belong
but it is kind of
not about where i belong
but about finding where i want to belong
that haunting need to belong somewhere
to have someone, somewhere, something to call your own
it is never easy

but if it's never easy
then it must be as easy as everything else
when you've hit rock bottom
there's nowhere you can go but up

just keep walking to see the day of light

zettai akiramenai
ja!

nowadays is a period where things that i have never experienced before are happening

it's like being on a path to somewhere wonderful
but thorns grow out of the path
and you start to wonder if it's the right path
people further ahead are telling you
you might step on thorns but don't give up
this is THE path

im currently stuck in the middle
between the thorns
and people who are saying yes
but i shall persist
and continue to tread lightly to avoid the thorns

this is the storm in the middle of the ocean
on the outside, it's ravaging fury
on the inside, it's calm
i choose to be in the eye of the storm
i have chosen
so wish me luck

ja ~