after watching lots of snsd videos
i just want to immerse myself in the happiness of the world
when unhappy things happen
i just tune out and look for sources where i can feel that there is still hope
while this maybe bad for me
since it is an escape
but i don't want to change
it wasn't easy to feel that doing your best was enough and there was no other way that it could have happened
to feel that happy things could really materialise

i pray that this feeling won't go away ~
fighting!!

it takes only 2 days to lay waste to the efforts put in over the last two months
but still
it's no excuse to stop

fighting!

I think i really like girls who've got certain personalities
A good way to put it would be those who have got personalities that contrast mine
but probably have similar interest?
Haha

yay
72.5 and 21.9
way to go
fighting!

why do we have to go to places we don't like
why do we have to go to places that takes 2 hrs to reach
why do we have to go to places to look at people we don't want to see
why do we have to go to places only to get confined
why do we have to go to places where they serve food that have been cooked hours ago
why do we have to go to places where they force you to come early and release you late
why do we have to go to places where they are stingy with offs and generous with punishment

but the choice wasn't mine to make

it's no different from the poor concubines, maids and slaves to an evil lord
at least they get the sympathy
all we get is time will pass very quickly
as if it was a jail term meted out on a criminal
believe me
right now
the place i go to
is a prison

I have found the weakness in the plan that I was sticking to
the problem is dinner
If i eat a little for dinner
the weight goes down and so does the bf %

if i stick to the current plan
i should in time for a six pack by ord
hehe