first off.
really big sorry to mielin for not being able to make on monday cause i was having a great headache.
Sorry.

next.
happy belated birthday to jo.
im no good at remembering birthdays.
Sorry

third.
i've received all three universities' letters of rejection
this is probably the lowest point in my life.
know where to go
nowhere to go
plus all the unluckiness in the world seems to pour out on me
that i should be posted to the same company that i have always wanted to get out of
and to the vocation i least wanted to go
in the spare time that i could squeeze out when waiting to rush
i stare into blank space and start to remember all the times i have experienced despair
how i dug my own grave with my own hands
and how i am doing it once again.








the weight of the world bears upon my soul