alright
final week of the holidays
and exams after that

i know i should be motivated but im not
i cant find a source of excitement

ive been watching oceans eleven
all that glitz and glamour
make life so interesting
but thats so movie

perhaps i should make my life more interesting
its so boring facing notes
and writing stuff

and after all that yada yada
i think its time to move on...

Mommy, Johnny brought a gun to school
He told his friends it was cool
And when he pulled the trigger back
It shot with a great crack

Mommy, I was a good girl
I did what I was told
I went to school, I got straight A's
I even got the gold

But Mommy, I went to school that day
I never said goodbye
I'm sorry Mommy, I had to go
But Mommy, please don't cry

When Johnny shot the gun
He hit me and another
And all because Johnny got the gun
from his older brother

Mommy, please tell Daddy
That I love him very much
And please tell Zack, my boyfriend
That it wasn't just a crush

And tell my little sister
That she is the only one now
and tell my dear sweet grandmother
I'll be waiting for her now

And tell my wonderful friends
That they were always the best
Mommy, I'm not the first
I'm no better than the rest

Mommy tell my teachers
I wont show up for class
And never forget this
And please don't let this pass

Mommy, why did it had to be me
No one deserves this
Mommy, warn the others
Mommy, I left without a kiss

And Mommy tell the doctors
I know they really did try
I think I even saw a doctor
Trying not to cry

Mommy, I'm slowly dying
With a bullet in my chest
But Mommy please remember
I'm in heaven with the rest

Mommy, I ran as fast as I could
When I heard that crack
Mommy listen to me if you would

I wanted to go to college
I wanted to try things that were new
I guess I'm not going with Daddy
On that trip to the new zoo

I wanted to get married
I wanted to have a kid
I wanted to be an actress
Mommy, I wanted to live

But Mommy, I must go now
The time is getting late
Mommy, tell my Zack
I'm sorry but I had to cancel the date

I love you Mommy, I always have
I know, you know it's true
And Mommy, all I wanted to say
is, "Mommy, I love you"

This was from an email that was titled 'Try not to cry'
and I had to send it according to the email
but I'll save you guys the trouble and just read it here
Theres no pesky send it on or you're a cold hearted guy things here
and since I typed it out you guys could guys copy and paste
yup
oh at the end the email read

Just keep this in your heart
For the people who didn't get to say goodbye

floating and flying are for dreamers
and dreams are but just dreams
nothing more

okie so heres the plan
this week, ill finish up my physics, math and econs
next week ill finish up my geography and do many many practices

then after my mids
im going to train hard to get silver for my retest
ill do 7 pullups and jump 240cm and run 12 mins

depending on my timetable
one day is going to be essay day
one day is going to be math day
one day is going to be physics day

that will be the plan till end of a's
which is sadly after my bday
but well bdays dont mean a thing
so nothing sad in that

after a's
im going to buy myself a keyboard and learn the pianoish stuff
im going to run once in the morning and once in the evening
increase my pullup count to 14, jump to 260 and increase my vertical
drop to 66 kg
oh and look good for the prom
haha

oceans thirteen
nice
oh well
2nd wk gone
gotta start intensive mugging le
haha

see?
its not much of a holiday
haha

ytd class outing
started out with lan with cj, ki and ted
haha
quite fun
cause made opponents leave game
haha
i cant believe one of them actually said we were cheaters
now i feel so proud of myself

then we went to bedok to meet ru and yy
before going to buy the food for bbq
but no one had any idea where the shop was
and we were like walking up and down to find the shop
really pissed back then

then went to mel house
wah so boring
the guys were like dying in the sweltering heat
after a long long long wait
finally the girls came and started the bbq
as usual
i did nothing to help
im always the one to eat the food
cause i have no skills
swam abit too
and omg
ki said i have imperfect body
i will prove him wrong
had fun talking with the class
ha
it ended well
yup
thats all folks

was looking through the message history
and
it just...
reading the earlier parts made me smile
until the last part... couldnt help it but sigh
how did it end up this way

gone is the past
so should the memory