mielin : nice to see you back ! =) anyway contract bridge... im not cut out for it. i just cant get anything into my head. what 2 spades, 6 points... you get the idea

been chatting online for a few hours
one of the longest ever
feeling so much lighter
not so much of a burden anymore
thanks so much
and for the first time in so many weeks
i just slept after lying on the bed

and woke up at 830
basketball training
was so rushed
didnt even bathe
just brushed my teeth
got changed and went out
but still about 15 minutes late
for the first time in so many weeks
i finally get to get on the mj court again
the feel of the ball is so shuang
although we all have regressed significantly
then we play lots of 5 v 5
i think thats nice
cause we get to feel the importance of teamplay
and not reckless soloing
and after that
sunburnt !
wah...
its like i put on make up or something
peach shade


got home
need to sleep already
but so hot
needed the aircon
and woke up at 5 to meet derek
but was late
cause i was supposed to meet him at 5
XD
play ball again
that session although wasnt one of the best that we had
seeing that he hadnt touched the ball for 1 month
but i thought it was good to just slack a bit
i would have just become angry if i was the old me
ppl change i suppose


it was on the courts
when suddenly i felt
my life wasnt the same anymore
something was not right
maybe it was that little girl
reminded me of her


im sorry but im really trying hard not to think of her
just that everywhere
theres like a little thing that brings back memories
maybe you're right
scorpios think too much
and a great tad emotional
anyway
im quitting maple
after all this time
i think that maple had driven me
away from my life
yup.
thats all folks

something off wenchien's blog
im bored okay

Favourites
favourite colour: White and black (obvious)
favourite food: was chicken rice. Now... i dunno
favourite song: Moby - Porcelain (paradise ~ )
favourite movie: Lion King
favourite sport: basketball
favourite day of the week: obviously sunday
favourite season: summer. the beaches!
favourite ice-cream: chocolate mint?
current mood: bored
current taste: nani?
current clothes: pants
current deskstop: paradise
current toenail: natural. do i look like i paint toenails?
current time: 12.09 am
current surroundings: living room
current annoyances: tml theres 2 killer papers
current thoughts: sleep?
best friends: yg and jlo
first crush: dont rmb
first movie: nightmare before christmas
first lie: never bring hw obviously
first music: dun rmb
Last cigarette: i hate smokers
last drink: s18 chalet
last car ride: afternoon in a taxi
last movie: Cars
last phone call: nobody calls me
last CD played: November's Chopin
have you ever dated your best friend: no.
have you ever broken the law: dunno
have you ever been arrested: no
have you ever skinny-dipped: this is singapore... --'
have you ever been on tv: no
have you ever kissed someone you don't know: never kissed
5 things you are wearing: even if i wear one more it doesnt reach 5
4 things you done today: screwed my maths paper, walked in late, blanked for the entire 2 hrs, sleep?
3 things you can hear right now: the fan, Long Quan, the expressway
1 thing you do when you are bored: dream...


after all this...

im reflecting on what a misfit i am

heres my grps of friends and the reasons why im such a misfit

s18: love ya guys. i forget everything im out with yall. but you guys are contract bridge players. I cant understand it. its your lives and so theres nothing i can do.

sec4 guys: the times we had together ... great to reminisce.. but your love is soccer. im not more of a soccer player than i am of being someone nice

infernoz: we share the same passion... but we have differences... attitude problems here and there. selfishness reigns

tenaga: you guys are great. basketball... talk cock sessions... but i cant talk about relationships with yall..

tkd: we can talk about anything and everything. but... since we had problems.. its just better to leave things that way they were.


yup thats all folks..

man
today was freaking sian
played maple
die
12 pm to 12 am
the most unlikely people can come to noob places and kill noob monsters
guess thats what 2x exp can do to people
nth much about it
den go play ball
also sian
play halfway rain
den stop raining
den rain again
den stop
and so on and so forth
den go mac
go there and when i finding my hp
den cannot find
PANIC
den rush back to find
cant find
den my friend called my hp
and i heard my mum's voice
RELIEVED
some maid found my hp
called my dad
smart huh
my dad called my mum go pick up
mum arrived
maid called dad to confirm
confirmed
thanks a lot to maid
take down her address
must go thank her someday
which might be tomorrow
anyway
midyrs just a few days away
and i havent touched on anything
prepared to fail
correction
failed to prepare, but rest assured the next two days, i will complete everything including econs and geog which i am prepared to fail
anyway
i must thank
guanyin, god, allah, anyone and everyone who is up there
yupyup
thats all folks...

today went for class outing
initially we wanted to blade
but since it was raining
there was risk of slipping
so anyway
ted ccj and me
ended up waiting at mac
we thought we were late but
we were first
then we went bowling
seems like ive lost touched
or maybe i havent
whats there to lose when you dont even have it in the first place
den we went blading
godz
ill never blade again
its sooo tiring
my soles were aching when blading
den we went lagoon
and went back
gosh i couldnt take it
and decided to just give up
not worth the pain
theres abrasion
anyway
this class outing shows just how many people are the real enthu people
the rest
theres nothing to say about them
then we went to jolene's hse and eat stingray
the one bought at lagoon
quite nice
and haha
we ate fast
one box
although only me and ccj
we finished the whole thing in like under 10
anyway
had a fun time today
yup
thats all folks

watched coach carter yesterday

the more i watch
the more inspired i am to play basketball
its so well depicted of the balancing of basketball and studies
at the same time
this makes me reflect

the team, the training
where is it leading to?
nowhere man
nowhere

people not coming down
only a few people know why they aint comin down
and we as members wonder why there aint no one
man i hate that
there aint no team spirit
and now im wondering why im going down
like some dumb ass dog
im holding on only cause of friendship
there aint no other cause
every week i go down
i sense overwhelming sianness
what this shit
people playing their own games
theres no i in team
screw those people who thhink they're great shit
man i despise em
might as well quit the team man
fuck it
thats all folks...

today was nothing much
woke up earlier a bit
to make it for training just to see only mereith there
im utterly disappointed
although some other people did come
but... 8
what good is 8
4 v 4
right
then i went to my aunt house
my cousin's kid.
whats that term?
full month yup
so got all these buffet style things
pretty much the same
actually i wouldnt have come
but seeing that i havent been to visit my relatives for a long time
hey
its time to go catch up
den there was this featured movie
its called necromancer
its a thai movie
but it has english subtitles
and dialogued in chinese
pretty interesting
about this police who was put in charge of hunting a necro
pretty powerful one
the weaker ones die from bullet shots
this one can survive
can become invisible
summon ghosts
control mind
erase mystic symbols which were meant to imprison him
suddenly move faster
restore power of other necro
turn leaves into bees
slit the throat of a dead chicken which in turn kills some policemen and the chicken comes to life !
summon some cow and dog from nowhere, either holy or unholy, not the real things
i think he killed a ghost !
and make people die of mysterious ways i dont understand
den near the end was this necro was actually a policeman previously
he was betrayed by the in charge who puts this policeman on the case
but the in charge changed the story when he told the policeman
so ya
he goes on the trail
gets KO for 3 days
dreams of talkng to the necro
i think he was under a curse
and later the necro puts a nail in him
had to go to a priest to remove it
then he ask the priest to do him a favour
then the priest poke symbols on his back
i couldnt stand it
den got this parade
the necro went there
gosh you should see
very very very disgusting
the people poke stuffs through their mouths, noses, cheeks
*pukes
but lost him anyway
then he goes on a killing spree
of necros
taking something
some necro guide book
i think
den he goes to this house where the necro was betrayed before he became one
to find his guide book
den the necro shows up
and they fight
turns out this policeman can do necromancy
he become ultra strong... punch people can fly
can climb walls
can do the nightcrawler thingy
its exactly the same animation
but different colours
poof, he's gone
lol
then he turn rain into blood
wah
it was actually raining at that point of time
den suddenly their faces had blood dripping on them
and the whole show turns reddish not radish
ok lame
the necro summons a holy cow of some sort to maul the police
but he didnt die
den got a holy dog come out and bites the police
den police stabs the dog and the dog disappears
oh by the way
the knife/sword/dagger appeared when the necro tried to kill the police
but the knife couldnt go in !
den the police does the nightcrawler thingy
and poof
in front of the necro
i though he was going to kick him of something
but i see
how come so long also havent kicked
turns out he was using his legs to grab the necro
and he was actually poking the necro's eyes
i think he xi xing da fa drain the necro's power
den use a stick to whack the necro
didnt show what happened to the necro
but in the end
it showed the police in jail
exactly the same place as the necro
with more mysterious symbols
but his body was full of symbols
did i mention that the necro had a body full of symbols?
but the police had more
so... it actually means that the police himself turned into a necro
guess what
before he became one
he said he didnt believe in such things
den... now
people these days
at the end of it
im spooked !!!!!
im afraid to go to thailand
all those creepy things
scary things
all come from thailand
in remember the eye 10
also start in thailand
yucks...
anyway if by any chance you dont know what a necromancer is
he is ... an evil priest of some sort, manipulate things or people, change this into that
but the good thing is
it appears that as long as you go to a temple
with lotsa golden statues of buddha
you can receive help
luck i believe in buddha
ah ~ buddha... please help me get rid of these things, get them off my mind
amituofo
thats all folks...

New phone
nokia 6280
im loving it
dadadadada
soo cool ~
wee
although that means im uncontactable for like 1/2 days
anyway
its not like anyone want to contact me
thats all folks

im bored
heres something i noticed
might not be true

gals
they want to be pampered
notice all the things they always put up at
bullentin boards and blogs and everything else?
they WANT the guy to be like this, do this, do that...
to me, its like all the stuff that great love stories are made of
pt: they want the guys to give

in arguments whether which gender is easier to be
usually started by the guys saying gals are easier to be
they always use pregnancy and menses to defend themselves
and that men always feel that their lives are harder because of their ego
pt:they always win cause guys can never experience menses or pregnancy. neither do the guys have anything else that puts them on par with them but have to experience the 'who ask you to be a guy ... too bad lor' taunt. talk about sexual equality
(p.s even in times when guys DO win, the scene of 'you are so unreasonable' 'yes, im unreasonable so what?' comes to mind)

they also have the edge to play both cheeky and serious parts
i dont really know how to explain this but then
when the guys are serious, they say why so serious
then when the guys are playful, they say can be more serious a bit?
the time to be or not to be seems to be controlled by them
pt:the mood depends on her.

now this is a bit personal
gals are supposed to be talkative aren't they?
but when it comes to a guy who dont know what to talk
they ask the guy to talk
and so the guy say you should be the only talking
and they go, if you dont talk, how do i know what to talk about
pt: guys have to be a conversation starter

this last point is really, to me, irritating
as women grow older
they become more and more of 'i am right'
EVEN THOUGH thats not necessarily true
my guess is that guys gave in too much
till the point where they think they are right
its totally disgusting

guys
everytime theres a meeting or what
its always the guys who are there first
of course i dont deny that there are late guys
i for one, is such a guy
but since when has it been a rule such that guys have to wait?
lets not talk about group meetings
lets say a date
we have to wait just because they dont have the courtesy to doll themselves up 3 hrs in advance?
does it only happen when its a formality such as a ball or a prom

this is a minor point but
remember ladies first?
what happened to sexual equality?

i only noticed this recently
guys are more left out in grp meetings
i know for gals its irresistable
but i dont think its right to talk about handsome guys and cute guys in front of other guys
idols aside,
hey its not wrong to talk about it
but notice how guys cant comment on other guys?
either theres no comment or theres an image to keep up
what would you think of a guy saying that another guy is cute?
obvious

everyone has this stereotype
but i know we just dont like people who are fat
no offense meant to anyone anywhere
but hey lets take a closer look
definition of fat(guys): just fat , surface layer
definition of fat(gals): no great body, ie no 6 packs
not everyone in the whole can have 6 packs
and gals talk about being egoistic
they dont realise what kind of pressure they are exerting

there are other things to mention
but most are in rs conditions
and since i havent been in one i dont have much right to comment on it....
yupyup
and if any gals feel greatly disturbed by this post,
im sorry, but really, no offense meant.
yup
thats all folks...

its been more than just a long time
and i have just lost track of time

the reason being i didnt use the pc for a long time
the monitor spoiled on sunday
while i was mapling
damn
luckily i wasnt too experienced for my level
cause i "died"
and only did the new monitor came on thursday
for that 4 days
i was suffering from withdrawal symptoms
its the hols but theres nothing to do
was reduced to playing pokemon
and man
i just realised that my blue version was also restarted
by my bro
damn kid
as if deleting my 7 mews wasnt enough
he had to delete the file that contained my hard trained pokemons

played basketball almost everyday
cause met up with the tenaga ppl almost everyday
and i just discovered something else
they say that im photogenic but thats something that i feel isnt
strange huh

and friday
went to meet with the s18 peeps
yup
had fun singing
i also realised that yufung dont sing a lot
anyway
the last few songs
wenchien clement and me were quite high
everything also we know de
and theres the
xiao xa zhou yi hui
dont know why but it was so funny
then after that we went to the nearby kopitiam to eat the chicken rice
then went back to tenaga
wanted to play ball
but they went to mac

den play ball
sia la
the people there is play so rough de
i hate rough players
thats why i always outside
haha
dont want no injuries
then go home

then earlier this morning
couldnt wake up
was late for training
but they only just started
thats something about the ineffiency about the team
then went to kallang kfc to eat
guess who i saw













su caiqi

i was like talking to my friends and then
this girl stare over
and i looked over
wah
caiqi
i dont know why its like so strange
but we seemed to lack a common topic to talk about
but then what do you expect after more than one year of not meeting
anyway
she was with her friends, canoeists i presume
and of course i was with mine, basketballers
haha
i think that was the most obvious difference i guess
anyway i went to catch cars today
got free tickets
damn nice
i guess i teaches us a few meanings of life
i think its inspirational
anyway
thats all folks

Today
was supposed to go for training at 8
but overslept till noon
oh well
but in the afternoon have lessons
pon
i couldnt show my face if i didnt go for training in the morning
otherwise they would take it that i just didnt want to go for the sch team training
and one has got to know how much being in the sch team means to me

erm
played maple most of the time
beginning to feel the sian ness
although my fire mage can semi consistently OHKO wild boars
either with fire arrow or magic claw
the point is
i just want to get my fire mage
up till lvl 120
its just totally awesome
the things that they can do
but the point is
i never made it past 40
not even my cleric
so right now im sticking close to the guides
im only familiar with victoria island
once i went to ossyria i was damn lost
couldnt find my way out
luckily thank god, allah, guanyin whoever might be up there
hidden street is there
muahaha
i love that site
well other than the fact that it doesnt offer guides
doesnt matter that much anyway
and today is my neighbours wedding day
wow
she lost A LOT of weight
and from what my mum told me
she ran everyday before she goes to work
she's like a model for some slimming centre
the before and after is totally... wow
but im sure she didnt go for slimming programmes

went to the orchard parade hotel i think
and the place is like
i dont know why
but everytime i go for wedding dinners
i always get into the mood to think about my future
as in
my own wedding dinner
lol
maybe its the atmosphere?
at the same time
i think ive grown a bit since the last wedding dinner
which i dont remember when
why
cause i start to look at girls
serious
its not something pervertic or whatever you girls wanna call it
last time i was like
got to eat more
now the food dont seem more of a priority
i couldnt care less if there were only 3 dishes
maybe its the people
cause all those people are people i dont know
not like relatives' wedding dinner
where you know everyone
well almost
its the same faces everytime
except as time passes by
you dont get to see some faces anymore
some are just busy and some ... just dont exist anymore
you get what i mean
and seriously
who would consider a relationship with your cousin or whatever
no right
i dont know why but its sort of incest to me
to be liking someone from your family

maybe ive just gone crazy
that day during training
there were 2 girls
one of them were not bad
and i was like
eh, ask them to play with us leh
then my friend went
eee, bian tai
and i was like what the
he say you wanna play with them just to touch them
--'
whoever said anything about touching them?
i just wanna interact
see if there's potential gf in them
the qualities
you know what i mean

and probably this haircut has made me sort of overconfident
during the wedding dinner
i was like
looking around seeing if any gals are looking at me
now thats crazy right
but its true
i was hoping gals would look over

haiz
tml is friday liao
2 wks to mid yrs
i cant wait to start mugging
h3 maths and physics
well my grp of friends are all aiming for h3
and thats cause i want everyone to be
i asked them to aim for it
muahaha
i hope that sort of ensure we all promote for j2
cause if i dont
i think i can just go commit suicide or start working and live my dreams
which would be very difficult if i dont complete university

i wanna get rich
find a sweet loving gf
buy a car
get married
buy a house
dont have to be too big
a 4 or 5 room would be good
condo or private properties can come later
settle down
have kids
the rest can wait

but before i get rich
i wanna have a laptop
2 desktops
digicam
(i find i dont have enough pictures reason being not photogenic)

and now
i say wow
from one topic i link to another
and another

well okie thats all folks