If you dont say it
no one knows
but if you say it
you're afraid everyone knows

so should you say it or should you not?
let everything bottle up inside
or be seen as someone who complains all the time?

Its this kind of things that affects us...
decisions decisions

yesterday went to ml hse instead of party world
cause she was sick
so decided to visit her?
guess it wasnt a fast trip from pasir ris to boon lay
one end to the other

played bridge there
but seriously have become noob at it
cause they were playing contract bridge
got lots of funny stuff i dont understand

den 7+ went to eat la mian xiao long bao
missed that place
althought it was at a cost of watching bao lian deng
opportunity cost incurred i guess

dont know why couldnt eat much
was it because i was eating too slow
or was it because i ate something at ml hse before going?
but the almond beancurd with longan was excellent

i realised i stone very easily
i was looking at this very nice glass panel
its like its shattered but it isnt
den there was light from above and refracted to my eye
like diamonds like that
then i started to stone
lost in thought?
lol


den went clementi play pool
roy was inba
he won every round
den go home
was quite tired

den today have to wake up early to go basketball match
some church thing
but the basketball matches only started at 1230
and we werent even in the starting game
it was quite alright ba
although i had a foreboding that i wouldnt get to play much today
the first time we went in we got some cheering
make me feel so good
haha
but i aint main player
so
it wasnt for us
wasnt for me at least

the first round was quite bad
lost something to zero
den i start to sian diao
go out play

came back
still not my turn to play
slept awhile before
finally getting to play
the second last round
i was sub in only at the finally 40 seconds
not like i could do much
but the next round was better
although i didnt score
but i did a lot of steals and passes and intercepts
we won like 26-2
but the other team was not so good
so it wasnt a honourable win
it was more of bullying


then we started to have problems
the problem about people changing focus from wanting to score to wanting to play
and those who were not as good
did not get to play
den so the argument began
i dunno why
but i cried
after voicing my opinion

i feel
so emotionally unstable
so physically weak
abit girly like that

maybe all this talk about gender change has gone into my head
dont really wanna go think about it

somehow i feel amazed by what people can say
when they're comforting you
all those good stuff you never hear
all those good points you never knew you had
im thankful for what they did


notice how i never used any "..." or a lot of lol/haha
this entry?
trying to get rid of that bad habit

thats all folks