went for gp exam today
i think gonna fail compre
den learning journey
go bumboat ride
nth much abt it
just "fragrances" and lots of water around
den go watch x III
I looooooooovvvvvveeeeeee it !
damn nice
cyclops died but they didnt show it
i wanted to see how he died
kinda funny how someone can kill someone she loves
shes damn powerful anyway
that jean grey/phoenix
godz
she's hot
made me wanna be wolverine in that scene
thats not the point actually
what i like about this movie is that
there is lots of nice stuff
like, more mutants showing their powers
totally awesome
especially when phoenix disintegrate the whole place
and how wolverine heals himself despite being disintegrated at the same time
ah yes
when professor died
i almost cried
so sad ~
but i decided not to anyway
not in front so many guys
ah ~
i want phoenix's powers
she's the only class 5 mutant...
maybe apocalypse too
but he's not that important yet anyway
and prof and magneto is like class 4 only
zzz
amazing how she can threaten magneto
wee ~ tml there's training....
yupyup thats all folks...
i think gonna fail compre
den learning journey
go bumboat ride
nth much abt it
just "fragrances" and lots of water around
den go watch x III
I looooooooovvvvvveeeeeee it !
damn nice
cyclops died but they didnt show it
i wanted to see how he died
kinda funny how someone can kill someone she loves
shes damn powerful anyway
that jean grey/phoenix
godz
she's hot
made me wanna be wolverine in that scene
thats not the point actually
what i like about this movie is that
there is lots of nice stuff
like, more mutants showing their powers
totally awesome
especially when phoenix disintegrate the whole place
and how wolverine heals himself despite being disintegrated at the same time
ah yes
when professor died
i almost cried
so sad ~
but i decided not to anyway
not in front so many guys
ah ~
i want phoenix's powers
she's the only class 5 mutant...
maybe apocalypse too
but he's not that important yet anyway
and prof and magneto is like class 4 only
zzz
amazing how she can threaten magneto
wee ~ tml there's training....
yupyup thats all folks...
10:06 pm
monday was a long day
owe teachers so many hw
had to work till 3 to finish
only got 3 hrs sleep. tired
but suprisingly...
tuesday i was quite energetic
one thing ~
i went home to get my uniform in the morning
haha
went to sch without uniform
i usually go in basketball clothes
so embarrassing sia
everyone streaming in
den i de only one going out
somemore in tp shirt
stupified
den came back only after the first break
haha
the rest of the day was ok i guess
haha
den today
slept until 7+ cause sch starts at 830
left home at 740 or 50 i dun remember
haah
reached sch before 830 sia
so fast
hmm
then today had the basketball trial
im damn scared la
i was point guard
didnt get to shoot
only pass
den the people i pass to was like unable to score sia
sibei sian
after the trials i was damn sian
the people didnt want to pass
they only wanted to score themselves
den keep asking me to pass
is this a sign of inconfidence in me or am i right about them?
dont want to remember
cause it will just hurt to hold on to such undesirable memories
den after that we play 5 v 6 against the j2
tianwei was inba
he one person can get round like 3 4 people
ha
got once i intercept the thunder ball from him
den i tripped
guess what
i skidded on my hands
now my hands are like
wooohooo
on the line of pain and shuang
but that isnt the point
the point is i scored the last 2 balls
and won the game haha
tml there's physics spa
and den half day cause we have to go and support the mj soccer team
oh ya
i just remembered
while we were playing the trials
there was this max meridian going on
those people are freaks man
got one person jump over the mat
all 3m of it ~ !!!!
god
im gonna achieve something like that next year
see me compete in all the 5 items
well except sit and reach
muahaha
thats all folks
owe teachers so many hw
had to work till 3 to finish
only got 3 hrs sleep. tired
but suprisingly...
tuesday i was quite energetic
one thing ~
i went home to get my uniform in the morning
haha
went to sch without uniform
i usually go in basketball clothes
so embarrassing sia
everyone streaming in
den i de only one going out
somemore in tp shirt
stupified
den came back only after the first break
haha
the rest of the day was ok i guess
haha
den today
slept until 7+ cause sch starts at 830
left home at 740 or 50 i dun remember
haah
reached sch before 830 sia
so fast
hmm
then today had the basketball trial
im damn scared la
i was point guard
didnt get to shoot
only pass
den the people i pass to was like unable to score sia
sibei sian
after the trials i was damn sian
the people didnt want to pass
they only wanted to score themselves
den keep asking me to pass
is this a sign of inconfidence in me or am i right about them?
dont want to remember
cause it will just hurt to hold on to such undesirable memories
den after that we play 5 v 6 against the j2
tianwei was inba
he one person can get round like 3 4 people
ha
got once i intercept the thunder ball from him
den i tripped
guess what
i skidded on my hands
now my hands are like
wooohooo
on the line of pain and shuang
but that isnt the point
the point is i scored the last 2 balls
and won the game haha
tml there's physics spa
and den half day cause we have to go and support the mj soccer team
oh ya
i just remembered
while we were playing the trials
there was this max meridian going on
those people are freaks man
got one person jump over the mat
all 3m of it ~ !!!!
god
im gonna achieve something like that next year
see me compete in all the 5 items
well except sit and reach
muahaha
thats all folks
8:26 pm
If you dont say it
no one knows
but if you say it
you're afraid everyone knows
so should you say it or should you not?
let everything bottle up inside
or be seen as someone who complains all the time?
Its this kind of things that affects us...
decisions decisions
yesterday went to ml hse instead of party world
cause she was sick
so decided to visit her?
guess it wasnt a fast trip from pasir ris to boon lay
one end to the other
played bridge there
but seriously have become noob at it
cause they were playing contract bridge
got lots of funny stuff i dont understand
den 7+ went to eat la mian xiao long bao
missed that place
althought it was at a cost of watching bao lian deng
opportunity cost incurred i guess
dont know why couldnt eat much
was it because i was eating too slow
or was it because i ate something at ml hse before going?
but the almond beancurd with longan was excellent
i realised i stone very easily
i was looking at this very nice glass panel
its like its shattered but it isnt
den there was light from above and refracted to my eye
like diamonds like that
then i started to stone
lost in thought?
lol
den went clementi play pool
roy was inba
he won every round
den go home
was quite tired
den today have to wake up early to go basketball match
some church thing
but the basketball matches only started at 1230
and we werent even in the starting game
it was quite alright ba
although i had a foreboding that i wouldnt get to play much today
the first time we went in we got some cheering
make me feel so good
haha
but i aint main player
so
it wasnt for us
wasnt for me at least
the first round was quite bad
lost something to zero
den i start to sian diao
go out play
came back
still not my turn to play
slept awhile before
finally getting to play
the second last round
i was sub in only at the finally 40 seconds
not like i could do much
but the next round was better
although i didnt score
but i did a lot of steals and passes and intercepts
we won like 26-2
but the other team was not so good
so it wasnt a honourable win
it was more of bullying
then we started to have problems
the problem about people changing focus from wanting to score to wanting to play
and those who were not as good
did not get to play
den so the argument began
i dunno why
but i cried
after voicing my opinion
i feel
so emotionally unstable
so physically weak
abit girly like that
maybe all this talk about gender change has gone into my head
dont really wanna go think about it
somehow i feel amazed by what people can say
when they're comforting you
all those good stuff you never hear
all those good points you never knew you had
im thankful for what they did
notice how i never used any "..." or a lot of lol/haha
this entry?
trying to get rid of that bad habit
thats all folks
no one knows
but if you say it
you're afraid everyone knows
so should you say it or should you not?
let everything bottle up inside
or be seen as someone who complains all the time?
Its this kind of things that affects us...
decisions decisions
yesterday went to ml hse instead of party world
cause she was sick
so decided to visit her?
guess it wasnt a fast trip from pasir ris to boon lay
one end to the other
played bridge there
but seriously have become noob at it
cause they were playing contract bridge
got lots of funny stuff i dont understand
den 7+ went to eat la mian xiao long bao
missed that place
althought it was at a cost of watching bao lian deng
opportunity cost incurred i guess
dont know why couldnt eat much
was it because i was eating too slow
or was it because i ate something at ml hse before going?
but the almond beancurd with longan was excellent
i realised i stone very easily
i was looking at this very nice glass panel
its like its shattered but it isnt
den there was light from above and refracted to my eye
like diamonds like that
then i started to stone
lost in thought?
lol
den went clementi play pool
roy was inba
he won every round
den go home
was quite tired
den today have to wake up early to go basketball match
some church thing
but the basketball matches only started at 1230
and we werent even in the starting game
it was quite alright ba
although i had a foreboding that i wouldnt get to play much today
the first time we went in we got some cheering
make me feel so good
haha
but i aint main player
so
it wasnt for us
wasnt for me at least
the first round was quite bad
lost something to zero
den i start to sian diao
go out play
came back
still not my turn to play
slept awhile before
finally getting to play
the second last round
i was sub in only at the finally 40 seconds
not like i could do much
but the next round was better
although i didnt score
but i did a lot of steals and passes and intercepts
we won like 26-2
but the other team was not so good
so it wasnt a honourable win
it was more of bullying
then we started to have problems
the problem about people changing focus from wanting to score to wanting to play
and those who were not as good
did not get to play
den so the argument began
i dunno why
but i cried
after voicing my opinion
i feel
so emotionally unstable
so physically weak
abit girly like that
maybe all this talk about gender change has gone into my head
dont really wanna go think about it
somehow i feel amazed by what people can say
when they're comforting you
all those good stuff you never hear
all those good points you never knew you had
im thankful for what they did
notice how i never used any "..." or a lot of lol/haha
this entry?
trying to get rid of that bad habit
thats all folks
10:58 pm
decided not to put the title anymore
cause theres no meaning to it ...
hmm...
i think its been like a week since i posted...
well what can i say
life isnt what it seems to be...
its so complicated but i want it to be simple
and when you are simple...
people take advantage and make things complicated...
ok erm..
been playing ball like almost everyday
now i know why i havent been improving
cause i played everyday...
i dont know why... but
it seems better to be left alone for sometime before i touch the ball..
been trying out my left hand...
seems to be catching up with my right...
haha...
anyway...
been failing and failing test all year long..
dont know why...
but i think its time to buck up...
must concentrate...
i think sometimes why i havent been able to do well is cause
im taking it too personally...
ever heard of the glass?
hold it too tightly and it breaks
hold it too loosely and it slips..
either way... its gonna hurt...
i think i did well last sat...
more teamworking me...
becoming more of a point guard...
but...
thats not what i have in mind
i want to be able to take up every position in the court
lol...
but biological constraints remains
and that leaves me out of the centre position
now i dont really know what im blogging about...
cause it doesnt make sense to me anymore...
oh...
almost forgot..
took the napfa last week
did i mention this?
dun remember...
but anyway
passed everything with at least a D... except for pullups
dont know why i can do push ups but i cant do pullups..
whilst some people can do pullups but cant do pushups...
anyway...
i dont think that thats an excuse for me to not do pullups
yup
i must be able to do everything
and be able to do everything WELL
rightie...
hm...
what else.
i think thats all
thats all folks...
cause theres no meaning to it ...
hmm...
i think its been like a week since i posted...
well what can i say
life isnt what it seems to be...
its so complicated but i want it to be simple
and when you are simple...
people take advantage and make things complicated...
ok erm..
been playing ball like almost everyday
now i know why i havent been improving
cause i played everyday...
i dont know why... but
it seems better to be left alone for sometime before i touch the ball..
been trying out my left hand...
seems to be catching up with my right...
haha...
anyway...
been failing and failing test all year long..
dont know why...
but i think its time to buck up...
must concentrate...
i think sometimes why i havent been able to do well is cause
im taking it too personally...
ever heard of the glass?
hold it too tightly and it breaks
hold it too loosely and it slips..
either way... its gonna hurt...
i think i did well last sat...
more teamworking me...
becoming more of a point guard...
but...
thats not what i have in mind
i want to be able to take up every position in the court
lol...
but biological constraints remains
and that leaves me out of the centre position
now i dont really know what im blogging about...
cause it doesnt make sense to me anymore...
oh...
almost forgot..
took the napfa last week
did i mention this?
dun remember...
but anyway
passed everything with at least a D... except for pullups
dont know why i can do push ups but i cant do pullups..
whilst some people can do pullups but cant do pushups...
anyway...
i dont think that thats an excuse for me to not do pullups
yup
i must be able to do everything
and be able to do everything WELL
rightie...
hm...
what else.
i think thats all
thats all folks...
8:40 pm
I thought i had improved.
but the fact remains that i've actually de-improved
why?
why is it happening?
what is happening?
no doubt my dribbling and 'qie' has improved
but what happened to my shooting?
how come everytime i just got the feel
it just goes away?
what am i gonna do as a shooter?
i feel totally redundant
was damn pissed today
first when i went to court
kena hit my ball in the face
den during full court
i see someone damn solo...
why isit that he is such a solo babe?
and why isit i cant stand people who are solo babes?
I know i sometimes am solo...
but it is normal for people to be solo SOMETIMES !
not all the time...
i totally hate selfish people...
all i wanted was a good game
and none could give it to me...
fooling around...
furthermore
there was no training...
raining in the morning
stupid rain...
had to change place to tampines to play ball...
and suddenly...
i feel like im getting so emotional...
why? why? why?
easily angry, easily happy, easily sad, easily depressed
whats this?
pms ah..
next week's napha
and im all prepared to fail...
cant do no pullups...
cant run 2.4..
cant do shuttle run...
the only thing i can do i sit and reach...
but im seriously getting less and less flexible...
shit
and i still owe my econs teacher 4 mindmaps...
Demand and supply
elasticites of demand and supply
cost of production and something else...
feel like i cant keep up...
"Maybe one day we'll wake up and this will all just be a dream"
part of Mockingbird...
Wished that the above is true...
NOw ill stay back in sch do my fitness routine and study until 8...
everyday...
gambatea...
thats all folks...
but the fact remains that i've actually de-improved
why?
why is it happening?
what is happening?
no doubt my dribbling and 'qie' has improved
but what happened to my shooting?
how come everytime i just got the feel
it just goes away?
what am i gonna do as a shooter?
i feel totally redundant
was damn pissed today
first when i went to court
kena hit my ball in the face
den during full court
i see someone damn solo...
why isit that he is such a solo babe?
and why isit i cant stand people who are solo babes?
I know i sometimes am solo...
but it is normal for people to be solo SOMETIMES !
not all the time...
i totally hate selfish people...
all i wanted was a good game
and none could give it to me...
fooling around...
furthermore
there was no training...
raining in the morning
stupid rain...
had to change place to tampines to play ball...
and suddenly...
i feel like im getting so emotional...
why? why? why?
easily angry, easily happy, easily sad, easily depressed
whats this?
pms ah..
next week's napha
and im all prepared to fail...
cant do no pullups...
cant run 2.4..
cant do shuttle run...
the only thing i can do i sit and reach...
but im seriously getting less and less flexible...
shit
and i still owe my econs teacher 4 mindmaps...
Demand and supply
elasticites of demand and supply
cost of production and something else...
feel like i cant keep up...
"Maybe one day we'll wake up and this will all just be a dream"
part of Mockingbird...
Wished that the above is true...
NOw ill stay back in sch do my fitness routine and study until 8...
everyday...
gambatea...
thats all folks...
11:16 pm
okie...
i dont know what to blog...
but since its been so long ...
i shall think of something to blog
lets start from last friday
last friday had colosseum..
meaning sports day...
wasnt really interesting...
except for zul's events..
he's a bloody fast guy...
boots of travel and windwalk...
spent most of the time playing cards
and den went to play ball ~
den went to shiqi hse stay over...
den go training the next day
do jersey and decide the new name of the team
was generally a bad day for me
cause had like no luck or wad
no shooting form... everything was off...
i think for such days... i should just be point guard or wad
cause was everyone was like relying on me for the 3 pters
and there was some kind of conflict
dunno la
something about shiqi and dx...
something about disappearing..
dun really care.. cause...
usually i have no talking power here
i speak... i get someone telling me to shut up ~
fine...
i think for such things...
ill not attend
like what jianlong told me
he said i look serious and fierce whenever i play ball
so ill just smile and pretend that nothing had ever happened
and i think im right about myself...
i have been too involved in the team
so much that it had dragged me down
from now on...
ill just be selfish and be the kind of people who siao li chang dao
den we went to shiqi hse
almost couldnt make it there
reason being
didnt have breakfast
and played from 9 to about 3 or something
then went there and bathe and go out for oliver's bdae or wad la
but then there was no space or whatever
den we went to play pool
but the girls that oliver brought along wasnt over 16...
well for that matter neither was he
den went for dinner
at some bakuteh shop
wah lau
i was sweating like tap water flowing out the tap
went back to shiqi hse to bathe and get my bag
it weighed a TON
and so is my bag these days
and den went to david hse to see man u vs chelsea
lol... chelsea was like overpowered...
i mean
over powering
ownage..
den see rebound...
quite a good show..
went home like near 12...
dead tired...
sunday... nth much la... and so was monday
and so was tuesday
and so was yesterday...
and so was today...
lol
thats all folks...
i dont know what to blog...
but since its been so long ...
i shall think of something to blog
lets start from last friday
last friday had colosseum..
meaning sports day...
wasnt really interesting...
except for zul's events..
he's a bloody fast guy...
boots of travel and windwalk...
spent most of the time playing cards
and den went to play ball ~
den went to shiqi hse stay over...
den go training the next day
do jersey and decide the new name of the team
was generally a bad day for me
cause had like no luck or wad
no shooting form... everything was off...
i think for such days... i should just be point guard or wad
cause was everyone was like relying on me for the 3 pters
and there was some kind of conflict
dunno la
something about shiqi and dx...
something about disappearing..
dun really care.. cause...
usually i have no talking power here
i speak... i get someone telling me to shut up ~
fine...
i think for such things...
ill not attend
like what jianlong told me
he said i look serious and fierce whenever i play ball
so ill just smile and pretend that nothing had ever happened
and i think im right about myself...
i have been too involved in the team
so much that it had dragged me down
from now on...
ill just be selfish and be the kind of people who siao li chang dao
den we went to shiqi hse
almost couldnt make it there
reason being
didnt have breakfast
and played from 9 to about 3 or something
then went there and bathe and go out for oliver's bdae or wad la
but then there was no space or whatever
den we went to play pool
but the girls that oliver brought along wasnt over 16...
well for that matter neither was he
den went for dinner
at some bakuteh shop
wah lau
i was sweating like tap water flowing out the tap
went back to shiqi hse to bathe and get my bag
it weighed a TON
and so is my bag these days
and den went to david hse to see man u vs chelsea
lol... chelsea was like overpowered...
i mean
over powering
ownage..
den see rebound...
quite a good show..
went home like near 12...
dead tired...
sunday... nth much la... and so was monday
and so was tuesday
and so was yesterday...
and so was today...
lol
thats all folks...
9:19 pm