in a blink of an eye
2005 is almost over
i've been around everywhere
and everyone is talking about what
they've done this year

I think its a good thing
and so here i am to
to....
to...
to talk about it...


basically...
2005
has been a bad year
failed my english
failed my black belt grading
chose a wrong course in poly
rejected 2x

those are quite the major setbacks


but there's always a good side to everything

met some good friends
-the s18 ppl
-my basketball teammates
yup...
meeting her (most impt)
being able to finally tell her
won 2 medals
slimmed down some more


theres one more
dont know whether its good or not
being more emotional

I dunno
i laugh more and i get upset more this year
i used to be those ppl who couldn't find a reason to laugh
and one of those ppl who were stone... couldnt get upset


then there's my blog...
im proud of it
and there's my buddy junming to
confide everything...
thanks bud...

and god...
ive got a low paying job...
but its a job
even tho it means
facing bloody kids
and irritating parents


ive understood politics
all that backstabbing ...


ive payed dearly for my job
having dinner at 1 am
being almost debarred from exams
neglecting studies


these few days ...
i've thought of quitting
cuz of her
cuz of the politics
cuz of the pay
cuz of the consequences

but im too much a p2p person to
quit my job
i cant leave my buddy
i cant be irresponsible and tell sir i wanna stop
i cant bear to spend a day without seeing her

hey
thats the reason why i want to go jc
ppl in poly are so brand based
look based
whatever based
im a poor man's son...
in jc ...
everyone wears a uniform
looks doesnt matter that much
(it does... but not so much as in poly)
in jc... ppl know ppl from other classes
like friends
in poly... ppl know ppl from other classes
only because... he hates/likes someone there

so there
im so made for jc
but life wants me to go poly

im made to think
but in poly...
i think ive become stupified
no offense
1st sem work... all learn before
can pass with flying colours
without studying
become too lazy to think again


this is so shitty !
if life was a game...
i would quit now
leave everything behind
but a restart button wouldnt be so bad either


hmm...
resolution for 2006?
i dunno
i've never made any new year resolutions
Hopefully...
i can wake up from this eternal slumber
be more hardworking
say no to com

thats about all
yup
thats all folks...