had only 5 hrs of sleep
damn tired
den basketball
shouldnt be much of topic usually but
there was only 3 people
derek pangseh at last minute
vincent and seow came only because yijian asked them to
and
it rained today
and in the rain
thoughts clouded my mind

I was seeking shelter at the nearby hdb
den i borrowed clement's phone
I knew he was already troubled by something
and that something was in his msgs
had to see what was it
even though i knew it was most probably about shiqi...
I wanted to know what happened
I needed to know
And there was
deborah's name in there
knew it
Ok
so the whole problem goes
Shiqi came last week
showed us attitude
We noticed
we discussed
we mentioned the possibility of him leaving the team
clement said he wouldnt mind
as long as he doesnt join deborah's team
well... that was the truth
he had joined deborah's team
i knew it
cause the week before he showed us attitude
he went for training
with deborah
after our own training
I had to tell clement about it
and so i told him
Bryan had already joined MP
this week
clement confronted shiqi
shouldnt have had been a problem
until deborah msg clement
first
and told him not to harass or pressure shiqi
in the meanwhile
he was also msging shiqi
as a teammate and as a friend
it's unbearable to see how they are breaking apart
shiqi says he didnt find himself improving ...
clement says he shouldnt betray Inferno
shiqi says he didnt
and it all ended up with shiqi telling clement to say what he wants... he wouldnt be bothered
from deborah's msgs
i would conclude that clement told her that she stole shiqi because he was the strongest
she said he wasnt and that she would have asked him(clement) to join if we wasnt with Inferno

Then why did she even take shiqi over?
shiqi's happier with them
couldnt agree more
but still it isnt a reason ...

i mean
cmon
the team exist for not even a year...
and there had been infinite problems
attendance, tempers ... all sorts...
the three captains
when they first set up this team
they wanted to create a happy team
seems like it didnt work out and
shiqi left, irresponsible
I wont say im going against him
neither will i be against clement
but if we had wanted a happy team
we should let go
but clement couldnt and cant let go
clement had let his personal feelings overcome him
cuz he didnt like deborah and co
neither do i
but i would still have let shiqi go...
as the saying goes
'mian qiang shi mei you xing fu de'
maybe all i would ask of shiqi is to ask him come down when he can to train us a lil
afterall
he was one of the captains
Eric still doesnt know about this whole thing
he probably go mad
even if i did request shiqi to come down
clement would refuse
or even worse...
dont wanna know what could happen

me and derek had been talking about this problem
long before this had happened
we could tell that the team would disband
in a way or another
'89 peeps have o lvl
' 88 peeps most are in jc, promos
'87 peep have a lvl

assuming all goes well, next year
'89 peeps have their promos
'88 peeps have their a lvl
'87 peeps have their ns

it all comes down to clement, eric, yijian, derek and me
by next year, eric, clement would enter the army
den left yijian, derek and me
yijian would enter ns unless he defers by entering a poly
and all thats left is derek and me
whoever heard of a two man team?

really frustrating

ok

today i had my black belt grading
for the 2nd time
sir said waihon and me did too fast
and had us to accept a terms and conditions
before he would pass us

its scary
50% of the people who go there FAILS
that 3rd dan
in my opinion did quite well
but he failed

ok
had to spar 3 rounds
the first round was bad
the black belt owned me
second round was better
third round was ok

its was in the second round that i injured myself
cuz kinda hiong
den kicked his elbows...
haiz

and after that we waited almost 1 hr before mdm came out
we were going to Robin sir's place for a lil demo
sir wasnt supposed to know
and so we were like hiding from him at Tao Payoh
and i kinda like became more and more talkative
shot a lot of people with those idiotic tones...
den we left
walked a damn lot before we reached the bishan interchange...
and we waited for bus 58
only to realise it was the wrong side...
the trip back was ok
but i was damn tired
really really really tired
and i really hate to leave my friends
thats was i look really sad/strange when im in a situation where i have to leave them...

it happens all the time...
well, i guess thats a lot of one day
and as this sentence is being typed
my eyes are droppy
so that all folks...